- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -
Put your little paws on my hand and let me take you home. Let me groom you and let me nurture you. One day you will grow up to be strong and healthy. One day you will understand that each of us have a place in the world. But for now let me lay beside you and watch you sleep. Let those tender eyes of yours entice me with innocence.
When the time is right, you will look at me, frail and weak. For I am unable to groom you anymore. I am unable to stroke you fur and pat your head. And in one graceful movement, you will devour me to end my misery. Only then will we be together as one.
*Chomp* *Chomp*
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
Hang me by the noose
- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -
Seems like another one of the random internal turmoil or is it that I am just breaking up under depression? Maybe to me a lot of things have happen or is it just me thinking too much? Why of unknown causes am I so much affected by the surroundings? Why am I unable to increase my latent inhibition and be immune to these external forces? The sudden influx of questions, self-preservation and uncertainties are interfering with my daily existence and this is quite on the contary to the fact that I am so much well protected in the past. I have forced myself into a safe and locked myself up back then but why is it that this safe is slowly decaying on me? What should I look for? An answer to complete my life? A sign? And if it's possible, where should I look for? I am already here so if it's not here then perhaps I should start searching elsewhere? Am I barking up the wrong tree?
As the gallons of questions flood my head, I am eluding these sub-conscious reality by substituting them with images of naive little kids running amok with cleavers and masks...
Then I found myself very much indebted and sinking into those past images, memories and warmth...into the arms of those.
Depression as I see it becomes more like a reality for me though there's no way I can forcast the next relapse. No I do not need to see a shrink or be administered to a special place with men in white. These are luxuries that I can't afford and will not be willing to...at least for the moment.
Seems like another one of the random internal turmoil or is it that I am just breaking up under depression? Maybe to me a lot of things have happen or is it just me thinking too much? Why of unknown causes am I so much affected by the surroundings? Why am I unable to increase my latent inhibition and be immune to these external forces? The sudden influx of questions, self-preservation and uncertainties are interfering with my daily existence and this is quite on the contary to the fact that I am so much well protected in the past. I have forced myself into a safe and locked myself up back then but why is it that this safe is slowly decaying on me? What should I look for? An answer to complete my life? A sign? And if it's possible, where should I look for? I am already here so if it's not here then perhaps I should start searching elsewhere? Am I barking up the wrong tree?
As the gallons of questions flood my head, I am eluding these sub-conscious reality by substituting them with images of naive little kids running amok with cleavers and masks...
Then I found myself very much indebted and sinking into those past images, memories and warmth...into the arms of those.
Depression as I see it becomes more like a reality for me though there's no way I can forcast the next relapse. No I do not need to see a shrink or be administered to a special place with men in white. These are luxuries that I can't afford and will not be willing to...at least for the moment.
Monday, September 08, 2008
Yeber Yeber Yeber Yeber nonsensical tickings
- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -
I am very tired after the Sunday's event. Indeed very tired both mentally and physically...my brain feels like shutting down for a much needed rest while my body is crying out loud for feeling lethargic. The weather sucks because I can see the mountainous regions beneath the clear blue sky. The sun is blinding my eyes but still I have to struggle to go to work and do nonsense each day. When night comes, I can feel the moon rejuvernating me but sometimes it's no where to be found. Yes it's really dark when there is no moon and superstitious fear are affecting my slightly. I live alone as many people have known so that makes me pissed. I am one angy terrorist awaiting the chance to blow many suckers sky high. Tick tick tick...I can feel it growing...
I am remorseful for leaving you, I am remorseful for neglecting you, I am remorseful for embarking on stupid childish dreams...I am remorseful. Will you still take me back if I come home? Will you still fulfill all the promises that you have made? Will you...
I am very tired after the Sunday's event. Indeed very tired both mentally and physically...my brain feels like shutting down for a much needed rest while my body is crying out loud for feeling lethargic. The weather sucks because I can see the mountainous regions beneath the clear blue sky. The sun is blinding my eyes but still I have to struggle to go to work and do nonsense each day. When night comes, I can feel the moon rejuvernating me but sometimes it's no where to be found. Yes it's really dark when there is no moon and superstitious fear are affecting my slightly. I live alone as many people have known so that makes me pissed. I am one angy terrorist awaiting the chance to blow many suckers sky high. Tick tick tick...I can feel it growing...
I am remorseful for leaving you, I am remorseful for neglecting you, I am remorseful for embarking on stupid childish dreams...I am remorseful. Will you still take me back if I come home? Will you still fulfill all the promises that you have made? Will you...
When lines are crossed
- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -
One is really kind or may I say brainless and the other one is smooth or may I say scheming bastard. These are the kind of societal miscreants that I have to face every now and then but why the hell am I getting involved in all these unproductive squabbles all of a sudden? Boy I wonder...here's the plot.
Mr 3-RETARD has a girlfriend, Miss Ask for 4 years. While Mr 3-RETARD also have a good friend (more like fiend), Mr You-SOB for God-Knows-How-Many-Donkey-Years. Miss Ask have a younger sister, Miss Say-WHORE who so happens to be dumped recently I presumed. While everyone knows that Mr You-SOB is some no brainer who have at least 3 different girlfriends at any one time, likes to lie and doesn't show respect for anyone. While Miss Say-WHORE so happens to know this as well but she decides to jump onto Mr You-SOB Pimp Wagon. Mr 3-RETARD in question does not do anything about it as he claims it's not his problem. Damn right not his problem but seeing that he will be the future sister-in-law of Miss Say-WHORE, he should at least exercise some sense into both his fiend, Mr You-SOB and also Miss Say-WHORE.
And then here comes the worst bastard Mr You-SOB. I presumed that everyone should be sensible enuff to stay clear off brotherly family affairs but this simpleton bloke with no future, dreams or watsoever decides to pull a fast one and chew on his mate's girlfriend's sister for say, a quick fix? Show some respect here dude...don't ya father ever teach you never bite the hand that feed you? Or sleeping with your own mother is not acceptable? Even dogs and other beast know of such a simple unspoken norm that governs all existence. Now you chose to ignore all of that and do like wise...it's almost like commiting incest and not to mention the fact that you have 3 people to dote on you. Argh I hate you and I want to burn you face down on a crucifix.
Well what a shameful world these poor pitiful imbeciles live in. But since it's like this, I might as well exploit on the situation and raze everything to the ground. I was actually planning to sow discord between these people and watch with chips and popcorn in my arms how the story will unfold further. Might be a rather spectacular show that will probably miss the Emmy's on grounds that it's a local production.
Sad but true...I shall never give people the respect when they simply do not have the honour to earn it. If they themselves do not respect themselves then all the more I and all others shouldn't. Bitch, slut, whore, bastards, pimps and assholes...rejoice as you can all join your hands and sing in unision. Because when you are done with that, you can all come kiss my ass and say goodbye.
One is really kind or may I say brainless and the other one is smooth or may I say scheming bastard. These are the kind of societal miscreants that I have to face every now and then but why the hell am I getting involved in all these unproductive squabbles all of a sudden? Boy I wonder...here's the plot.
Mr 3-RETARD has a girlfriend, Miss Ask for 4 years. While Mr 3-RETARD also have a good friend (more like fiend), Mr You-SOB for God-Knows-How-Many-Donkey-Years. Miss Ask have a younger sister, Miss Say-WHORE who so happens to be dumped recently I presumed. While everyone knows that Mr You-SOB is some no brainer who have at least 3 different girlfriends at any one time, likes to lie and doesn't show respect for anyone. While Miss Say-WHORE so happens to know this as well but she decides to jump onto Mr You-SOB Pimp Wagon. Mr 3-RETARD in question does not do anything about it as he claims it's not his problem. Damn right not his problem but seeing that he will be the future sister-in-law of Miss Say-WHORE, he should at least exercise some sense into both his fiend, Mr You-SOB and also Miss Say-WHORE.
And then here comes the worst bastard Mr You-SOB. I presumed that everyone should be sensible enuff to stay clear off brotherly family affairs but this simpleton bloke with no future, dreams or watsoever decides to pull a fast one and chew on his mate's girlfriend's sister for say, a quick fix? Show some respect here dude...don't ya father ever teach you never bite the hand that feed you? Or sleeping with your own mother is not acceptable? Even dogs and other beast know of such a simple unspoken norm that governs all existence. Now you chose to ignore all of that and do like wise...it's almost like commiting incest and not to mention the fact that you have 3 people to dote on you. Argh I hate you and I want to burn you face down on a crucifix.
Well what a shameful world these poor pitiful imbeciles live in. But since it's like this, I might as well exploit on the situation and raze everything to the ground. I was actually planning to sow discord between these people and watch with chips and popcorn in my arms how the story will unfold further. Might be a rather spectacular show that will probably miss the Emmy's on grounds that it's a local production.
Sad but true...I shall never give people the respect when they simply do not have the honour to earn it. If they themselves do not respect themselves then all the more I and all others shouldn't. Bitch, slut, whore, bastards, pimps and assholes...rejoice as you can all join your hands and sing in unision. Because when you are done with that, you can all come kiss my ass and say goodbye.
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