Angst and rising

- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -

Despite returning to work today after the tragedic Rotten Week which was supposed to be a fantastic Golden Week, I still could not get over the fact that I lost my precious PSP and other stuffs. I am really really pissed to the extent that I would really really end up brutally assaulting the responsible party for my misfortune. Maybe even stabbing and gutting who ever that asshole to appease me. Day in and day out extreme images race through my head regarding the lost items. I can feel my tension soaring exponentially and my hands twitching ready to release some justice.

Well maybe I got so attached to my PSP over the years that having it stolen is like losing a close friend. If I had lost it, I would probably have blame myself but this time round, it was clearly stolen. My bag was virtually emptied and my stuffs strewn across the floor. The only consolation that I got was that my bag, my jacket and my pocket dictionary was not taken.

My beloved White PSP that have kept me entertained for years and have kept me companied during my rough times, my sweet headphones that took me weeks of consideration before buying them and my torch which had a rather significant value to me. May all of you rest in PEACE for I am unable to take good care of you in the future. May you find yourself in the hands of a better asshole whom I pray will take good care of you.

I have never dropped my PSP and not a single scratch can be found on it after using it for years. I had it cased in a polycarbonate case and cleaned daily with a synthetic cloth. It was indeed a close friend and it was indeed love at first sight. We were destinied to meet but somehow God, where ever you maybe, took the liberty to seperate us and let me wallop in tears.

I have sunken to my knees and extremely distraught...Why, why the hell would it befall on me. Yes I know these are items that can be bought with money but I have an affiliation with them over the years so it's really not something that money can replace.

Damn you mutherfucker, may you suffer a fate worse than a diseased, mutiliated corpse. May your face be disfigured so disgustingly that you have to be identified thru DNA testing. May you be struck with a prolonged virus that will humiliate you and be outcast by the society. May both your eyes be blinded by sharpnels from an explosion. My all your limps fracture so badly that they jut from your skin. May you and all your friends and family members be strike down by vehicles and smeared across the asphalt. May their raw brains and eyes be exposed on the asphalt that crows feast on them. May your sisters and mothers be raped beyond recognition and may whatever unthinkable, unethical and unfathomable shits befall on you and all your generations.

Lastly, I am a believer and I believe what I see so if God ever existed and if doing good deeds will reap good rewards ever is true, then show it to me and not luck around like some useless myth that only makes innocent people suffer.