Wednesday, May 30, 2007

The Thunder that Never Goes Away

- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -

While the world sleeps tonite and a brand new day starts tomolo, Wayne Thunder will never wake up to see The Suns again. He's only 29, 1/3 of The Suns and he's gone. He was inspirational mentor, friend and icon to many others. I'd guess God had better use for him up there as he always did, like Kurt Cobain and many others. No words can express my condolences to Wayne and I guess I will just have to leave you with words from San and JBoss themselves. It's never goodbye Wayne, it's till we meet again someday in God's Santuary.


Wayne Thunder 1977 - 2007

"Wayne passed away peacefully in his sleep on Monday, 21st May. We still can't believe that Wayne is no longer around. It's hard to lose someone, harder when we'd shared dreams. Wayne was a rockstar, a drummer, a brother and a hero to us. The SUNS wanted to share with our fans the two eulogies from San Singer and JBoss at Wayne's Rockstar funeral."

Wayne Thunder’s Eulogy Speech delivered by San Singer

It was through Wayne’s music that we all saw his passion. It was through his music that he barred his soul to the world. I truly believe Wayne was an angel of music that God put on this earth to guide us through our lives. The happiest moments of my life were spent making music with Wayne Thunder. I feel luckier than most of you because I was in the same band with Wayne for 12 years. I was blessed with the opportunity to learn about music and about life from the greatest musician that this country has ever produced. I wanted to share with you some of Wayne’s divine lessons and qualities that have been inspirational to me and continue to inspire me in my life.

Wayne was the most disciplined person I knew...
I miss the times when we were living together in Melbourne and struggling to get started. Every single day when I came back from work or from uni, Wayne would be practising his drums. He didn’t go out on the weekends. He stayed at home to practise because he wanted to become a great drummer. Even at night he would practice silently on his practice pads. He would even practice while he was on MSN. So he would take some time to reply messages. I never used to set my alarm clock because his drum practising was my automatic alarm clock. I heard Wayne struggle from mastering rudiments at the start and heard him finally play amazing drum solos. I heard how he pushed himself to improve. It is a truly inspiring experience to witness such dedication. I have never known a musician more dedicated than Wayne. Today, he is by far Singapore’s greatest drummer of all time. One of my favourite memories of Wayne was watching his drum solo during our sold out CD launch show in Melbourne. There he was, my best friend playing his drum solo in front of 1000 Australians screaming their roars of approval and respect. I do not believe that there is a single musician in Singapore right now who can go to Australia and command that level of respect from Australians and fellow Australian musicians. There is only one Wayne Thunder on the drums.

Wayne never complained about working hard…
I have never heard Wayne complain about hard work. He was never lazy. He would always say to me, “Bo Pian lah. This is the path we have chosen. I’d rather be working hard than feeling sad about not chasing my dreams." When we first started playing in Melbourne in at this place called the Planet Café in front of 30 people, Wayne said that in two years we would be headlining a sold out show at the Esplanade Gershwin Room in front of 800 people on a Saturday night where people paid $12 to see us. Two years later, it happened because of Wayne’s relentless hard work in managing The SUNS. Here’s one amazing guy who went to Australia and got The SUNS into the legendary Espy Gershwin Room venue without any radio station, record label or sponsors help. He did it all of this while he juggled two part-time jobs, practising, producing and song writing for a band that he loved so much it became his life. It was very inspiring to see how Wayne could do so many things and work so hard... hardly ever get sleep but still be so happy with what he had. He was someone who had the tremendous ability to focus on his goals and not be distracted by the material world or by what others thought of him. Wayne not only had the courage to dream, he was the 1 in a million who actually did something about his dreams.

Wayne never gave up…
Wayne was the embodiment of optimism. When The SUNS were struggling, Wayne was our pillar of strength. He never once cracked under pressure. Instead, he would fix all the cracks. When we felt like giving up, Wayne was the guy that saw the glass half full. He would bring up all these rock’n’roll stories about “last time Rod Stewart used to dig graves…it’s all standard things we are going through lah. We have to earn it”. He felt happy to be struggling and living the rock'n'roll life. There was never one moment that I ever saw Wayne give up anything that he started. The words GIVE UP was something that Wayne could never register in his brain. Whenever I feel like giving up, I think about how upset Wayne Thunder would be if his best friend gave up and I try my best to carry on.

Wayne always did the right thing…
He always did the right thing even if it meant that he had to make big sacrifices. For example, when Wayne organised concerts in Melbourne for The SUNS and we packed out the clubs and made some money, Wayne would personally make sure that each band member was paid fairly before The SUNS were paid. This was why we never really made much money from the gigs that Wayne organised because he’d always shared the money with all the bands we played with equally. He firmly believed that it was the right thing to do because all the bands were struggling and they were our brothers too. It didn’t matter to Wayne that The SUNS were not rich. Wayne was a true artist. His joy came from spreading his message of love through his music and seeing how his music touched the hearts of people. That was his payment and I’m sure that he has a million dollars in heaven right now.

Wayne had the courage to stand up for what he believed in…
One of the most remarkable things about Wayne is the way that he never compromised on speaking the truth. One of the things Wayne was passionate about was making a difference in the music industry in Singapore. He took it upon himself to start the motion of change in the music industry here. I fondly remember a telephone conversation with Wayne where I just laughed and laughed at the story he told me. He told me, “Eh San, the other day I spoke to the guy from a record label in Singapore. He said he wanted to make a difference in the music industry here and he believed in Singapore music” Do you know what Wayne said to him “Ok. If you really mean that why don’t you put your money where your mouth is? Why aren’t you funding recordings for bands? The label guy was stumped for words”. I love Wayne for that. Wayne always believed that no matter what, we had to say what needed to be said and not to be afraid of saying it. Wayne believed that it was better to speak the truth than to avoid it. He would never water down anything for the sake of 'angkating' someone or because he wanted to try to get ahead in life or get a better sponsorship deal. Wayne was the most honest friend I had.

His love for his family…
I want to talk about how much Wayne’s loved his family. For Wayne, family came first. Not even music could get in the way of his love or sense of duty to his family. It was above everything else in his life. Whenever we were jamming or watching TV and he received a call from home, Wayne would stop whatever he was doing to speak to his family. Every time he received a call from Singapore his face would light up with love. And after he spoke to his family. He would come into the rehearsal room afterwards to tell us the funny things his father or mother said to him and we’d laugh along with him. I use Wayne as a role model as to how to be a good son to my family.

His music…
I just want to leave you now by singing a song that Wayne wrote which really captures his spirit. This is my favourite Wayne Thunder Song. The song is called “Let Your Love Shine Thru”

If you think you’re feeling down and everything just ain’t right
If you’re all alone in this great big crazy world and you gonna give up the fight
If you’ve lost your will, you broke your heart and now you gonna lost your mind
If you ever believe that you can never ever, just once get things right
Take a look on the bright side
Don’t let hurt run your life
Rid yourself of ill feelings
You just have to be bold
And let your love shine through to the other side
Let your love shine through and everything will be alright
Let your love shine through it will take you to the other side
Let your love shine through and everything will be alright
Let your love shine through it will take you to the other side


Dear Wayne Thunder, Thank you for being a son, a brother, a friend and our favourite rock’n’roll star of all time. I must admit that I am envious that you got to heaven before me but I’ll see you soon and I promise I will write a whole bunch of songs to jam with you when it’s my turn to go. God bless your wonderful soul Wayne and thank you for instilling within us all the spirit of Wayne Thunder and dude, thank you for changing my life.

JBoss's Eulogy Story

"When I first got to Melbourne, before I could even unpack, before we even settled on our band name, Wayne passed me a piece of paper, he said it was a contract. The contract was the simplest I've ever seen, hand written and crumpled, it had San's and Wayne's signature on it and with only one clause.

1. One day we will be Rockstars!!!"

After seeing the mass of people turn up at the wake, the radio dedications, numerous posts on blogs, Wayne, I hope that San and I have helped you live your dream, we hope that we have fulfilled the contract. That "One Day" has come and you are a true Rockstar!

Always in my heart Justin (JBoss)

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

To my one and only savior

- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -

Eventhough you might already have this, and besides it's like something that was like sometime back, still, I would wanna to dedicate this to you, my savior.

"From the first time I saw you, 僕は知っている君は僕がいつも待っている人。その時から、僕の世界はがらりと変えった。いつも夕暮れが見えるだけの僕は初めて、希望の光が見える。そんな事…ありがとう。僕は君に愛をあげたの日から、僕は僕たちの愛を信じる…いつか僕とダーリンは結婚できるを信じる。しかしもし本当に僕たちの愛は難しいになった、問題がある…絶対あきらめない。夢に着くまで、ずと一緒に頑張るよ。「一生一世」はいつも君と僕の約束じゃないの…僕は絶対覚えるじゃなくて、絶対今生忘れない!ダーリン…僕は愛が全部百ちゃんにあげた、心中希望と未来を入る…時々涙を入る。今生今世僕は君一人だけが大好きだ、それは絶対変えない、「愛する人」って名前は君だけ使えるから。それでも僕は間違えた、馬鹿になった、お願いあきらめない。"

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Visions of the other side

- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -

The past couple of weeks, I have been trying to walk out of my own depression but seems like it's getting worse and that it's affecting my work and everything. Boss ain't happy with my work and friends are pissing me off. Somehow I feel an emptiness, a void, a vacuum in my life that behaves like a black hole, sucking everything into the unknown.

The things that you are about to read are FUCKING scary and pls hold no offence to me if you choose to read it. This is a dream I got due to extreme depression which I totally have no control over and that the cause of it remains unknown.

Yesterday nite everything felt so fucking bad that suddenly I felt like the abscence of everyone around me would be a good thing. Yes I mean everyone...somehow I felt that all my best friends and my brothers, whether they are with me or not doesn't really have a difference. People that I have known for a long time and people that have gone thru thick and thin with me, sweat blood and tears, walk the darkest shits on earth together...I felt that these people are suddenly of no significance to me. Meaning that whether they are around or not have really absolutely no impact on me.

And the dreams follows to a dark room where I gather all my best friends and brothers whom are "The Chosen Ones". They were all tied and on their knees...and I was there waiting to see their reaction and to capture their last words before I shoot them in the head. People whom have regarded me as their best friends and have totally no guard or what so ever against me, people who considered me the last person on earth to have ill intentions on them. I would like to see how they behave before being laid waste by the person they trusted and called best friend and brother.

While most questioned me why, desprately seeking answers to justify my insanity, they started cursing and swearing when they know they can't talk their way outta death. They simply have so much to live for and just didn't wished to die. It's funny how hostile people will behave knowing that they will die in the hands of someone that they trusted and believed.

And so one by one, they fell to the ground after the sound of the gun. Only 1 person...a girl whom I can't raelly see her face...she didn't mind dying...she lived for me and did not show the slightest hesitation when I asked her for her last words...she smiled and said, "I've lived enuff, seen enuff and if it's death you grant me, I'll gladly accept." She did not fear death, she was happy and relieved to receive it and that was why she was the only person who walked out of the dark room where all that was inside were on the floor, with a single hole in the forehead.

It was a fucking twisted dream, I really freaked out. I can't even imagine wasting my friends, my brothers. Who am I go play God...? Losing my sanity over depression is no excuse to have such twisted dreams...but still I see the vividness of the dreams even when I am wide awake now.

Not I really have to get a grip on myself and rid all these poisons of the mind before things really get outta hand. The mind is probably the most formidable weapon of a person so I really have to suppress such sick mentality.

I hope I can recover...I just need to fill up this emptiness for I know that the void is just one of the reasons for all these insane thoughts.

I will live through it. I have to conquer the demons within before they engulf me.

Friday, May 25, 2007

Damn you China assholes

- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -

Once again , my sweet little furry tail have been treaded by China idiots that seems to surround me like a horde of irritating roaches! Was awaiting to enter the train at Jurong station...when the door open, A sick bitch that's like worth a million slaps to the face pulled her bf and dashed straight for a seat, cutting across my path, knocking into me and what's worse, pissing me off! Damn you sick BITCH...I mean I will not slander you in any way if you do not behave in such a SICK BARINLESS manner. But since you chose to show your ungracious, FUCKING no manners and no brainer intellect, I will just have to procceed and FLAME YOU FUCKING BITCH.

It's utterly disgusting and seems to show that you lack all form of morals and etiquete that are otherwise present in every normal and sane person. FUCK YOU...ungracious, ugly, CHINA BITCH. Not only do you look ugly, you should not even be here in the first place, your existence only brings hate and disappointment to people around you. God should waste you or rather, even he felt utterly DISGUSTED to have your sorry ass in existence that he totally gave up on you. I pity your parents as I believe that you were a PEST created out of a really unthinkable freak accident between your parents! SICK SICK SICK and SCREW you asshole for ruining my otherwise peaceful and sweet Friday. I mean come on, tomolo's the weekend and you have to rain shits on my Friday...I say FUCK YOU BIG TIME!

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Once again...Sub-conscious sets in

- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -

I am a believer

Of my own destiny

I am a saviour

Of my own soul

Yet I am destroyed

By my own beliefs

God, I do not seek

Devil, I do not speak

Saint, I may not be

But Angel, you may be

Sun will blind my eyes

Fatigue will wear me out

Sickness will slow me down

But Faith will push me on

and keep me strong

Now, it's just me

sitting here silently

hidden in the shadows

with the moon in my eyes

I

will

find

you.

My new Toy...7070sc

- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -

Still struggling to get up in the morning, dragging myself to work and desprately wishing for a miracle to rid me of the infectious cough virus that's gutting me inside out. Coughing and coughing each day like a Bronchitis-striken, nicotine sucking addict. Well the doc said might be due to a virus infection...Damn! And sweetie Elsie left...now kinda missing her, well maybe it's kinda better this way...setting you free so you can fly to where ever you might prefer, away from my chains of despair. But still I wanna tell u, you will sorely be missed.

My diaphragm hurt shits when I cough...and I wanna party over the weekends. Miss out partying last weekend and so weet of Novem to ask me out. Ha...just when I do not ask anyone out for the weekend, they offered me a glimmer of hope. Now it's just pills, tabs and cough mix to keep me alove over the dreaded days.

Desprately trying to save up but...sucker me for loving cool and sweet looking gadgets just hooked up a SoftBank 707sc from Japan. Decent looking, plain and simplistic, flat but damn it's nice. Cant do MMS or GPRS and there is no T9 shits...just a simple piece of white chocolatic sweetness sitting on my palm. Not quite a powerful packed phone but rather a killer in the fashion department. Bah...a fashionista geek turned twit...sick sick sick!

Actually wanted to get a phone from Japan at the end of the year when I go there but guessed like I will stick to this sweet babe for sometime. It's already been unlocked, meaning that it can read our SIM card, so it's just plug and play aka USB. All other Japanese phones have to be unlocked before they can be used here in SG. Stayed up last nite to get my phonebook in as the damn PC suite cant hook up with the Microsoft Outlook in my comp.

The phone is basically a killer in the looks department with basic functions. Would be wonderful and glimming in Japan but here...it's sort of medicore for fucntions as cant really fully utilize everything. Cant play mp3 ringtones but rather mmf. PC suite can convert tracks to M4a format to be played on the phone but ONLY mmf stuffs can be used as ringtones...Had a really hard time last nite coverting tracks to mmf formats but in the end, they sounded muffled and 20% distorted so I was like WHAT THE FUCKED...and I just dumped whatever I have got and moved on to Zzzz as the "kick" from the pills, tabs and mix was already taking effect. Really liked the "feel" though...

Hmmm...now still caressing my phone...hehe *grin*

Here's the SoftBank webbie - http://mb.softbank.jp/mb/en/product/3g/707sc/index.html





There...Ahhhh what a sight. A rare beauty...slick and classy, elegant and sophisticated...

And thks Evelyn for being ever so sweet to me...

Friday, May 18, 2007

Carhartt Vs Stussy

- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -

Well, I guess I have to admit I am a big sucker for these 2 brands. Of course Stussy might have a bigger influence here in Singapore due to the fact that it was here for quite sometime and Carhartt, only managed to set foot here officially last year after a collaboration with Crumpler. Carhartt merchandise could be seen floating around at some shops in Far East Plaza sometime back but the choices were very limited. Thanks to the concept store located at the basement of Heeren, a wide vairety of Carhartt stuffs are now available. Not to mix them up with the U.S. edition of Carhartt, the ones in Singapore belongs to the street fashion series and can be found in the Carhartt Europe sites. Being around the street scene for sometime and sponsoring various sports events, Carhartt clothing has definitely gain a strong respect both in street fashion aspect and also a reputable brand. Although the Singapore store does not carry the full range of clothing, it is still a call for celebration for having these awesome clothing in Singapore. While Carhartt is so much more recognised in Japan along with Stussy and other street brands, the collaboration with Bathing Ape has made the brand gained an even stronger foothold in the street fashion scene. So please go visit your local Carhartt store for a piece of garment that has almost a 120 year history.

Stussy, I guess most people would already have known all that I am about to say. Afterall, which kiddo of the street fashion scene have not heard of this brand. What started out as a humble Shawn Stussy signature scrawned across T-shirts and surfboards have emerged to a brand with international recognition. And in Japan, Stussy supposedly have their very own in house designers...and my recent trip to Japan, there were like more than 50 ppl queueing up outside the Stussy Outlet in Odaiba before the new Winter line was launch. Now that is really a strong following...hopfully here in Singapore, we have followings like this and probably have a loyal and ever growing population who supports street fashion. Maybe someday we might just have our very own in house designer for Stussy as well. So let me end this post by saluting to all the international recognised local designers who have believed in their dreams despite all odds, SBTG in particular.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

A msg that works wonders

- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -

Down with throat inflammation and a really coarse cough. The cough syrup doesn't seem to work and I can't get to sleep at night. Body is aching and I feel so sullen!

Spent the whole day yesterday recuperatiing at home but seem slike it didn't help at all. Now struggling with 3 pieces of clothing, still freezing my ass off at work. And alas, a simple msg from you, a million miles away that warms me tenderly.

I used to have so much hopes and aspirations but now I'd rather take the dark, waiting path. I can't seem to ask you for anything and I am just being held in captivity by you.

No metal chains, no locks and no cages. It's just me kept in captivity by your thoughts, your illusionary prescence and you inexistence.

No regrets though for I chose this path and I not need any form of pity.

Just a simple msg, not a long one but just a simple one asking me how am I will be good. You are indeed a miracle...2 years of my life, I live in your bidding and then I was prepared to give my whole life to you. I may not be a saint and I have sinned greatly too but everything just leads to you.

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

Nintendo Wii

- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -

Tried the white machine with the weird controller. Was skeptical intially about the platform but later experience prove otherwise. Played the bowling and tennis under Wii Sports, found the trick before my arms got ripped of from the impact of swinging the controller. Gentle and steady, play with grace and kepp a positive mindset is what I learnt from that couple of minutes spent into exploring a outta this world type of gaming.

Seriously I must say it's a great platform for parties and ice breakers and not to miss out that great horde of babes and hunks sweating out in beach wear with a couple of Wiis and booze...it's a lethal concoction yet it's tastfully done. This would be my ideal weekend party.

Still it's a great experience and I would probably try Call of Duty 3 a while later, moving away from my all so comfortable Razor mouse / keyboard combination to a whole new level of gameplay. This WILL be the turning point and I do mean it.

To put it simply, the overall experience is SICK SICK SICK.

Not in a bad way but really, get a Wii and you will understand that it all make sense.

Denial

- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -

I look at your face each and every day

Bounded by a border of fading gray

Though seperated by a million miles

In here with me you smiled

I feel your warmth in the chilly mornings

Embraced by your memories in the cosy evenings

Still I wonder when will our paths meet again

Will you still be the same

Will I get to see your smile

Can I still fall in love with you again

My dreams have almost become reality

But I am losing my sanity

I have lost my confidence

And I am afraid

Believe

Faith

Hope

And

You

It's just me Missing You

Friday, May 04, 2007

Revamp...reality or just plain procrastination

- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -

Been in the idea of doing a revamp for my blog but still figuring out how to tweak it. So is it gonna take off or will it be another idea laid to waste.

Time will speak.

Zero Tolerence

- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -

It's great that I got all the items on my wish list listed in the previous post. The boots, the Stussy shirt, the Oakley shades, the hat. Pick up the SGD$270 shirt from my best friend Des yesterday nite. Had a rather long good-old-time chat with her to catch up a lot of lost moments. Cheer up des, ain't gonna rub salt on your fresh wounds but if it's not meant to be yours, set it free. Live the memories but move on and you will see that life is SHIT after all so take it in your stride.

We will all be still here to catch you when you fall so pls remember. Once again I have to give a big THANK YOU DES for bringing me the shirt in from U.K.

Apr's expenses was a little way off my budget...the boots - $SGD147, the shades - SGD$279, the shirt - SGD$270+ (unconfirmed rates yet). So as usual the self-assurance mentality, there are some things money money can't buy, so it's better to have it than to need it and not have it. Afterall, you can always slog to get the money back. And besides, it's really SUCKY to only find out that the item that you've been contemplating to get is already out when you finally decided to get it. It's sucky, trust me...

Well supposedly the rain is regarded to me my best silent confidante and boy was I glad to be greeted by this gentle lady in the morning. Donned the SGD$270 Stussy gear and pulled over the Carhartt rain jacket to set off for work. Was really really in a smiling, vulnerable attitude to work...but...yep you guessed it...shits happen at work.

Got some really sarcastic remarks from my collegue. Not that I really care or that it hurts my pride or ego but it's just that I FUCKING DONT like it. You are a nobody to comment on my FUCKING job scope and you are totally NOT IN ANY FUCKING JURISDICTION to give a comment on what I do. I seriously DO NOT GIVE A FUCKING DAMN about you so STOP POKING YOUR FUCKING TWIG in my face! Yeah I do cherish the "Never bite the hand that feeds" but FUCK YOU for you have taken more than you can chew so CHEW ON THIS YOU DUMB ASS MOTHER FUCKER!

Thanks to the gentle lady Rain, that kinda like silently embraces me through the cold, chilly day...I gently whispered to myself, "Thks and I love ya sweetie"

Hmmm so now I am wondering what unexpected events will unfold next...I am really eagerly anticipating.