I hate everything and everyone else.

- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -

I am really trying my best to hang on all these while...so fucked up my life that you probably wont even care to understand or know. All thanks to you that I chose to screw up my otherwise blessed life. Yet I am not blaming you now, you wouldn't even bother to care given that you are already so tied up with your own problems. Though I cant understand how you feel or experience the mental truma you are going through, I ani't living a life of roses either. If you think you are going crazy, I am fucking sure I will get to a asylum before you do. Just that suicide is child's play to me these days, i wouldn't even consider wasting it for something so redundant.

Hanging on, I am almost on the bringe of collapsing but do you know? Well you wont and probably wouldn't even give a fuck. Everyone have 24 hours a day and yet not a single second can you spare for me. Giving up is not an option for me but I guess if the day I collapse, giving up will be the path to redemption. I am in no fucking position to ask where the fuck are you when I needed you as you would probably ask me the same fucking question. You are damn strong headed and self-centred yet I am a sucker who cant survive a single day with an antidote and you, of all the people have to hold the antidote. FUCKED!

People can be so FUCKED with their lives and though I seriously don't give a fucking shit what everyone elses think, I only care about myself. I am selfish and self centred and I am a fucking jerk. Welcome to me FUCKED, condemn world where angst and disgust engulf human's soul forcing everyone to slain everyone else so that in the end, only 1 will remain.

Since the last entry, my mental condition is seriously rotting away, each day looking for more sacrifices, lies and deceit. Occasionally I regain sanity but usually, I am just deceiving myself and everyone else. This is indeed a FUCKING tough route to take but it's just outwit, outplay, outlast. If I had a gun, I will shoot all FUCKERS that is making everyone elses' lives difficult and you know who I am fucking referring to. All who oppose my idealogy.

Just like Death Note, this world is so FUCKED and there are just so many redundant FUCKERS that the world are better off without them!

FUCKED!