My life so far

- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -

Sometimes, when I get lonely or bored, I tend to take a little time to look around me and reflect my life journey so far. It's not like I'm gonna die or nor am I preparing a will but sometimes, it's just good to take things a little slowly and appreciate what's goin on for the moment.

Well not quite words from a philosopher but I can really say that my life's pretty good so far. I was born in a slightly above average family so when I was young, didn't really have to worry about finances. It's just that my mum's pretty strict so I didn't really get to enjoy my adolescence period. I was pretty rebellious and as a result I really didn't enjoyed it willingly. But I must confessed, I made really great friends that would probably last till the day I die. After that I made even more great friends. Somewhere around mid-teens, I experience love for the very first time but I screwed it up so badly so it only lasted like a coupke weeks. Then came the waiting game and finally tragedy that changed my life. I pretty much screwed up everyone else's lives after that. Looking back, a little remorseful for those sinful deeds but never really much repentent or apologetic. Only sincerely and genuinely sorry to one particular angel who touched my life. I wanna say THANK YOU.

Well I do have really great friends and family and now I'm embarking on my career after completing the necessary academic shits that decides my future. Man...I really can't imagine that my life is decided by technically useless pieces of paper! But still I get all pessimistic at times. Withdrawn and paranoid.

I know I'm weird but it's ok. I'm really appreciative for all those who help me along the way and to everyone who have directly or indirectly affected my life and also to my arch nemesis and enemies. Thank You all people for making me who I'm am today...but still too much regrets is bugging me and so one day I shall sink with my regrets. I know I've been trying hard to let go and forget...but I can't.

Salvation is what I seek. God bless and have a great weekend.