- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -
It started yesterday and till today it's still wrecking havoc in everyone's lives. Well what am I talking about? My best friend the rain of course. I have a soft side for rain and I love rain. Why 'cos it's a subtitution for snow which will never happen here. So that sort of explains what happen.
Oh yeah back to the title...the day before yesterday which is Tuesday, I heard that my friend's grandmother had passed on, my condolences. And yesterday I was stood up by a relatively important figure of my life and it's not the first time I was stood up. I counted...the numbers exceeded 10. They may be valid reasons but even these reason will soon be redudant after being stood up so many times! Limits...I do hve limits and if you should cross it, you'll have to face my shits. Sometimes I really can't understand how people think and do things and I think I never want to know. All I know is that being stood up so many FUCKING times is really unpleasant that even an angel will become a devil!
Following that I found out that I can't call my confidante and that really sucks. Not everyone can be a good listener so I seldom discussed such unpleasant issues with everyone but this one, she IS indeed special. And then my boss's bf have to fly to U.S. for 3 weeks and she was pretty much affected by it. And I tink on Tuesday, A MOTHERFUCKING bengala accidentally hit me on the eyebrows while on the MRT and he MOTHER FUCKING didn't apologise. I swore I almost wanted to get even with him if not for the rest the other SHITTY BENGALAS in the same cabin. MOTHER FUCKER at least have some courtesy to say sorry. BRAINLESS idiots like this should be wasted along with all their imbecile ancentors and decendents which are possible defects of a failed experiment that went terribly wrong. A fusion of shits with more shits.
Bought Mac home for dinner and while at the counter, the "Duh" staff spilled the damn green tea next to me. Got my shoes and pants sprinkled with sweet juices. Damn bad things happen like diarrhoea, just when you thought it had ended more will come. While diarrhoea burns the pathetic little hole, these bad things burns the pathetic soul. Thank God it rained last evening and it was such a raging storm that washed even the slightest anger away from me eventhough I was soaked. I LIKE IT!
Acquired PSP Def Jam recently and was quite pleasant to play it as it like a new toy thingy...the appeal and novelty factor will keep you there for a while before something else take over.
Ok it's back to work now and I know a lot of people will be late and soaked in the rain. Have fun suckers!
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
What's up with this week?
- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -
Okay so this is what happens yesterday. My boss's boss once asked me why am I so quiet when I'm working...and I said nothing. Now as I begin to talk more to the other collegues, she said I talk too much. When I first started work, I worked late everyday then she told me there was no OT pay so don't work past the time I was scheduled. Yesterday she told me that I cannot just pack my bags and leave after the time I was scheduled and that I should stay back and finish my work. Ok my boss was offered a better position in the Finance department and my boss's boss, all I know is that she is MADE IN CHINA and that I REALLY REALLY tired to no discrimate or have any form of prejudice against her in the beginning but her first smile to me was so sinister. I really gave her chances to prove me wrong that nothing good comes out from that GOD Forsaken land other than my dad and others.
All else have failed. Once again my hypothesis is proven, the people from there simply SUCKS big time. I really cannot imagine what the FUCK is with her. And she can smile so sarcastic to everyone and SUCK UP to anyone who wield power in the company. But the truth is that she knows nothing and she wants to be part of everything. BRAINLESS MOTHERFUCKERS!
And last week I took a half day leave on Friday and the work was snowballed into 3 days of work by Monday and I was screwed for that. I mean if I'm really that vital to the company, shouldn't they compensate me a little more? And the best part is that the PIECE OF SHIT BOSS aka POSB knows nothing about my work and she screwed me. WHAT THE FUCK! And she actually have the guts to offer me the position to take over my boss. I told her straight in her face, "You pay me a degree pay, I might consider." and luckily she didn't ask me how much as I already knew she so FUCKING "neow" so she won't ask me.
FUCKING NO BRAINER can't even spell my name properly and she claims she's been to university. U my ass. She spells my name as "denial". FOOK YOU.
Luckily weekend is around the corner and as each day pass by, I'm 1 day closer to Japan. Wait for my Japan...I'll be there soon.
Okay so this is what happens yesterday. My boss's boss once asked me why am I so quiet when I'm working...and I said nothing. Now as I begin to talk more to the other collegues, she said I talk too much. When I first started work, I worked late everyday then she told me there was no OT pay so don't work past the time I was scheduled. Yesterday she told me that I cannot just pack my bags and leave after the time I was scheduled and that I should stay back and finish my work. Ok my boss was offered a better position in the Finance department and my boss's boss, all I know is that she is MADE IN CHINA and that I REALLY REALLY tired to no discrimate or have any form of prejudice against her in the beginning but her first smile to me was so sinister. I really gave her chances to prove me wrong that nothing good comes out from that GOD Forsaken land other than my dad and others.
All else have failed. Once again my hypothesis is proven, the people from there simply SUCKS big time. I really cannot imagine what the FUCK is with her. And she can smile so sarcastic to everyone and SUCK UP to anyone who wield power in the company. But the truth is that she knows nothing and she wants to be part of everything. BRAINLESS MOTHERFUCKERS!
And last week I took a half day leave on Friday and the work was snowballed into 3 days of work by Monday and I was screwed for that. I mean if I'm really that vital to the company, shouldn't they compensate me a little more? And the best part is that the PIECE OF SHIT BOSS aka POSB knows nothing about my work and she screwed me. WHAT THE FUCK! And she actually have the guts to offer me the position to take over my boss. I told her straight in her face, "You pay me a degree pay, I might consider." and luckily she didn't ask me how much as I already knew she so FUCKING "neow" so she won't ask me.
FUCKING NO BRAINER can't even spell my name properly and she claims she's been to university. U my ass. She spells my name as "denial". FOOK YOU.
Luckily weekend is around the corner and as each day pass by, I'm 1 day closer to Japan. Wait for my Japan...I'll be there soon.
Monday, August 21, 2006
Resurrection...is it possible?
- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -
Saturday afternoon, after my Japanese class, I went blading at East Coast Park with my friends. Then at nite I went down to Jurong ice rink to meet up my army friend. He was a ice hockey player with WinterFlames. Going back to the ice rink really made me recall my past, how I used to spent so much time skating there in my mid teens. Wow, when I close my eyes, I can really see it all coming back. My friend kept urging me to come back and play ice hockey, but...money was the issue. I had to get my gear all over again and that's like quite hard. I'm working my darn ass off everyday to go Japan and spurge so ain't got no spare cash for this. But then again the ambience and the feel there just made the burning adrenalin inside my veins explode! I WANT TO GO BACK and play.
Maybe, yeah just maybe after I return from Japan, I'll work a bit, get a pair of decent skates and pick it all up. I said mybe only so really can't promise anything. I've got better uses for my finances. Hmmm...wish I can get a load of cash now so I don't have to work so hard but that's definitely not gonna work out as I'll just get more greedy and lazier.
So back to the title, Resurrection is it even possible? Well the bottomline is that money makes almost everything possible. One day I shall rise from the ashes and on this day, a new hope is born. Yeah right, hehe I'm just making it sound all corny there so I can feel the past coming back, the youth-charged energy flowing thru my body.
Ok...like a really special person in my life once said, I'm always dreaming. Hehe and all these years of my life, she was THE and I stress again, THE only person that pointed out that to me and so I sort of have to let go of my all-so-sweet "world" and return to the reality that suck!
SCREWed and OWNED!
Saturday afternoon, after my Japanese class, I went blading at East Coast Park with my friends. Then at nite I went down to Jurong ice rink to meet up my army friend. He was a ice hockey player with WinterFlames. Going back to the ice rink really made me recall my past, how I used to spent so much time skating there in my mid teens. Wow, when I close my eyes, I can really see it all coming back. My friend kept urging me to come back and play ice hockey, but...money was the issue. I had to get my gear all over again and that's like quite hard. I'm working my darn ass off everyday to go Japan and spurge so ain't got no spare cash for this. But then again the ambience and the feel there just made the burning adrenalin inside my veins explode! I WANT TO GO BACK and play.
Maybe, yeah just maybe after I return from Japan, I'll work a bit, get a pair of decent skates and pick it all up. I said mybe only so really can't promise anything. I've got better uses for my finances. Hmmm...wish I can get a load of cash now so I don't have to work so hard but that's definitely not gonna work out as I'll just get more greedy and lazier.
So back to the title, Resurrection is it even possible? Well the bottomline is that money makes almost everything possible. One day I shall rise from the ashes and on this day, a new hope is born. Yeah right, hehe I'm just making it sound all corny there so I can feel the past coming back, the youth-charged energy flowing thru my body.
Ok...like a really special person in my life once said, I'm always dreaming. Hehe and all these years of my life, she was THE and I stress again, THE only person that pointed out that to me and so I sort of have to let go of my all-so-sweet "world" and return to the reality that suck!
SCREWed and OWNED!
Friday, August 18, 2006
Haha GOOD FRIDAY...
- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -
Okay here it goes, went to the Polar cakes and puffs at Raffles MRT to grab my breakfast. Well the usual procedure is to go order your sutffs and then go the the cashier to queue and pay. Then there was this uptight tall BITCH (FUCK YOU FUCKED UP TALL UGLY BITCH AND YES I MEAN YOU!) that went straight in front of me while I was q-ing to pay. And she actually ordered from the cashier ordering the shop staffs to assist to her. So when she didn't get what she wanted, she started to push her weight around and spoke to the poor shop staff in a really PISS-ME-OFF tone. I said, "You're suppose to order from there and queue here!" and she replied, "I always order here!" I really didn't argue with such low-mentality TALL UGLY BITCH. Damn should have taken a picture of here ugly face and flame her here.
Then after she left, I uttered, "What a FUCKED UP BITCH!" and the shop staff smiled at me and said, "These people always don't queue" and I guess that was for defending them earlier but on the contary, they really should not serve customers who are stupid. Less 1 UPTIGHT UGLY BITCH won't really affect the business as after all she only bought 1 pathetic egg FART, oops I mean tart for a mere $1.
So I came back to the office to have my breakfast and I slotted $0.60 in the vending machine in my office. I pressed the "Heaven and Earth Green Tea" and "POPPED" came 2 cans for the price of 1. Wow what a rewarding Friday. Just hope the Jasmine Green Tea can cool me down. Hehe TALL UGLY UPTIGHT BITCH really make my day. Cheeros to you BIATCH!
FOOK YOU!
Okay here it goes, went to the Polar cakes and puffs at Raffles MRT to grab my breakfast. Well the usual procedure is to go order your sutffs and then go the the cashier to queue and pay. Then there was this uptight tall BITCH (FUCK YOU FUCKED UP TALL UGLY BITCH AND YES I MEAN YOU!) that went straight in front of me while I was q-ing to pay. And she actually ordered from the cashier ordering the shop staffs to assist to her. So when she didn't get what she wanted, she started to push her weight around and spoke to the poor shop staff in a really PISS-ME-OFF tone. I said, "You're suppose to order from there and queue here!" and she replied, "I always order here!" I really didn't argue with such low-mentality TALL UGLY BITCH. Damn should have taken a picture of here ugly face and flame her here.
Then after she left, I uttered, "What a FUCKED UP BITCH!" and the shop staff smiled at me and said, "These people always don't queue" and I guess that was for defending them earlier but on the contary, they really should not serve customers who are stupid. Less 1 UPTIGHT UGLY BITCH won't really affect the business as after all she only bought 1 pathetic egg FART, oops I mean tart for a mere $1.
So I came back to the office to have my breakfast and I slotted $0.60 in the vending machine in my office. I pressed the "Heaven and Earth Green Tea" and "POPPED" came 2 cans for the price of 1. Wow what a rewarding Friday. Just hope the Jasmine Green Tea can cool me down. Hehe TALL UGLY UPTIGHT BITCH really make my day. Cheeros to you BIATCH!
FOOK YOU!
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Wednesday Mid-week...
- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -
This Monday, I woke up late and I thought I was gonna be late for work but still I was early by 20mins. Then by Tuesday, I was struggling to survive through the week with each day, my attitude for work decreasing tremendously. I wake up every morning contemplating about going to work, but really the truth is that work load is heavy and it's totally a no brainer job. Pay is pretty pathetic and I far exceed the requirements for the job. Damn my agent for getting me shit jobs. Then again beggers can't be choosers so for temp shit, I can only stick to this kind of no brainer, no life and pathetic pay shits.
Leaves and MCs, I'm just thinking which day should I throw them. But no work means no pay and I know very well that I'll spurge when I go Japan. SCREWED!! I guess I'm just plain lazy eventhough there are a couple of really nice people around me that tells me I look good and I'm talented. I say "THANK YOU" but seriously I'm just a lazy, fat asshole that will disappoint all you expectations. Yeah look on the bright side you say, but money IS the bright side. Now I really see money as a darn important thing that shines and glitters. Yes money is NOT everything but without money you are NOTHING! Face it, this is SINGAPORE, and the equations goes "STUDY+UNIVERSITY=BIG MONEY". At least that's what everyone thinks and another weird theory, "you can only have sex after you are married." Ha so it means that sex is equal to having kids? So you should do it after getting married? So marriage is the key to unlock sex which is only done to procreate?
Haha weird stuffs you get there...Well you definitely can disagree with any shits that I raise here but after all this is my FUCKING blog you are reading so raise any conflicts you want but accept my views.
Breakfast sucks big time this morning and shit loads of work to be done later, an accumulation from last Friday. Man I think today will be really FUCKED up and I have to be wearing a DAMN mask all day long. BLOODY HELL...FUCKED UP, SCREWED and I love JAPAN.
This Monday, I woke up late and I thought I was gonna be late for work but still I was early by 20mins. Then by Tuesday, I was struggling to survive through the week with each day, my attitude for work decreasing tremendously. I wake up every morning contemplating about going to work, but really the truth is that work load is heavy and it's totally a no brainer job. Pay is pretty pathetic and I far exceed the requirements for the job. Damn my agent for getting me shit jobs. Then again beggers can't be choosers so for temp shit, I can only stick to this kind of no brainer, no life and pathetic pay shits.
Leaves and MCs, I'm just thinking which day should I throw them. But no work means no pay and I know very well that I'll spurge when I go Japan. SCREWED!! I guess I'm just plain lazy eventhough there are a couple of really nice people around me that tells me I look good and I'm talented. I say "THANK YOU" but seriously I'm just a lazy, fat asshole that will disappoint all you expectations. Yeah look on the bright side you say, but money IS the bright side. Now I really see money as a darn important thing that shines and glitters. Yes money is NOT everything but without money you are NOTHING! Face it, this is SINGAPORE, and the equations goes "STUDY+UNIVERSITY=BIG MONEY". At least that's what everyone thinks and another weird theory, "you can only have sex after you are married." Ha so it means that sex is equal to having kids? So you should do it after getting married? So marriage is the key to unlock sex which is only done to procreate?
Haha weird stuffs you get there...Well you definitely can disagree with any shits that I raise here but after all this is my FUCKING blog you are reading so raise any conflicts you want but accept my views.
Breakfast sucks big time this morning and shit loads of work to be done later, an accumulation from last Friday. Man I think today will be really FUCKED up and I have to be wearing a DAMN mask all day long. BLOODY HELL...FUCKED UP, SCREWED and I love JAPAN.
Friday, August 11, 2006
My life so far
- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -
Sometimes, when I get lonely or bored, I tend to take a little time to look around me and reflect my life journey so far. It's not like I'm gonna die or nor am I preparing a will but sometimes, it's just good to take things a little slowly and appreciate what's goin on for the moment.
Well not quite words from a philosopher but I can really say that my life's pretty good so far. I was born in a slightly above average family so when I was young, didn't really have to worry about finances. It's just that my mum's pretty strict so I didn't really get to enjoy my adolescence period. I was pretty rebellious and as a result I really didn't enjoyed it willingly. But I must confessed, I made really great friends that would probably last till the day I die. After that I made even more great friends. Somewhere around mid-teens, I experience love for the very first time but I screwed it up so badly so it only lasted like a coupke weeks. Then came the waiting game and finally tragedy that changed my life. I pretty much screwed up everyone else's lives after that. Looking back, a little remorseful for those sinful deeds but never really much repentent or apologetic. Only sincerely and genuinely sorry to one particular angel who touched my life. I wanna say THANK YOU.
Well I do have really great friends and family and now I'm embarking on my career after completing the necessary academic shits that decides my future. Man...I really can't imagine that my life is decided by technically useless pieces of paper! But still I get all pessimistic at times. Withdrawn and paranoid.
I know I'm weird but it's ok. I'm really appreciative for all those who help me along the way and to everyone who have directly or indirectly affected my life and also to my arch nemesis and enemies. Thank You all people for making me who I'm am today...but still too much regrets is bugging me and so one day I shall sink with my regrets. I know I've been trying hard to let go and forget...but I can't.
Salvation is what I seek. God bless and have a great weekend.
Sometimes, when I get lonely or bored, I tend to take a little time to look around me and reflect my life journey so far. It's not like I'm gonna die or nor am I preparing a will but sometimes, it's just good to take things a little slowly and appreciate what's goin on for the moment.
Well not quite words from a philosopher but I can really say that my life's pretty good so far. I was born in a slightly above average family so when I was young, didn't really have to worry about finances. It's just that my mum's pretty strict so I didn't really get to enjoy my adolescence period. I was pretty rebellious and as a result I really didn't enjoyed it willingly. But I must confessed, I made really great friends that would probably last till the day I die. After that I made even more great friends. Somewhere around mid-teens, I experience love for the very first time but I screwed it up so badly so it only lasted like a coupke weeks. Then came the waiting game and finally tragedy that changed my life. I pretty much screwed up everyone else's lives after that. Looking back, a little remorseful for those sinful deeds but never really much repentent or apologetic. Only sincerely and genuinely sorry to one particular angel who touched my life. I wanna say THANK YOU.
Well I do have really great friends and family and now I'm embarking on my career after completing the necessary academic shits that decides my future. Man...I really can't imagine that my life is decided by technically useless pieces of paper! But still I get all pessimistic at times. Withdrawn and paranoid.
I know I'm weird but it's ok. I'm really appreciative for all those who help me along the way and to everyone who have directly or indirectly affected my life and also to my arch nemesis and enemies. Thank You all people for making me who I'm am today...but still too much regrets is bugging me and so one day I shall sink with my regrets. I know I've been trying hard to let go and forget...but I can't.
Salvation is what I seek. God bless and have a great weekend.
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Missing You
- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -
Watching day break each morning,
I wonder if the skies and sun you see,
are the same as mine.
And as dusk approaches,
what would be the moon and stars that you see.
Will they be the same as mine.
I pondered.
As a new day begins each day,
I see people passing by,
but my world seems so empty,
for they are mere strangers.
Everyone else is just superfacial.
I begin to feel my memories.
Even it's only a mental state of mind,
I could feel your warm embracing me,
smoothing my soul and mind.
And after a long day,
I return home waiting for another boring day.
I wondered.
What will you be doing.
Will you be happy,
or sad.
Will you be cold,
or lonely.
Maybe it's just me.
Just me missing you.
Watching day break each morning,
I wonder if the skies and sun you see,
are the same as mine.
And as dusk approaches,
what would be the moon and stars that you see.
Will they be the same as mine.
I pondered.
As a new day begins each day,
I see people passing by,
but my world seems so empty,
for they are mere strangers.
Everyone else is just superfacial.
I begin to feel my memories.
Even it's only a mental state of mind,
I could feel your warm embracing me,
smoothing my soul and mind.
And after a long day,
I return home waiting for another boring day.
I wondered.
What will you be doing.
Will you be happy,
or sad.
Will you be cold,
or lonely.
Maybe it's just me.
Just me missing you.
Monday, August 07, 2006
Here's more Hisa and Yui...
- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -
More pics for your eyes to feast...but dont get caught drooling for I'm seriously not responsible for whatsoever effects the following pics might have on you...see at your own RISK!
Man...being born with such a face...*sigh* is a desire that everyone wished they had. But, me so happen to be his friend...MUHAHAHAHA! So I seriously do not have the desire to have a pretty face...eventhough deep down inside still linger some envy. Come on, let's face it...60 billion people in the world and say like a 0.00000000000000001% of the population are blessed with such features? Ok did I blasted the proportion a bit too far? Well it do make perfect sense that only a small nano minority as compared to the majority are considered here AND SO WHAT DO THE REST OF US DO?
We work our lard ass off slogging every single shitty day trying to please someone be it out bosses, girlfriends, boyfriends, strangers, friends...the list go on. My point is that the social norm allow pretty faces to get a lot of things done much easier. ESPECIALLY where customer service or sales or advertising is involved. But hey don't fret...fear not 'cos there's always 2 sides of the coin...so all I can suggest is that we just have to find our own potential and work on it. If you succeed, hey presto! Charisma is born...and charisma is...well I don't have to spell it out for you rite? In case you are cracking your silly brains out figuring WHAT THE FUCK am I talking about? Well I just so happen to miss my daily shot of JIM BEAM BLACK and that explains the silly blabbering! Pardon me but really...mesmerise with charisma is a lot more potent and lethal
that a pretty face. Not I'm not saying that having a pretty face is not good but I'm just suggesting an alternatives to those who are not blessed with such fortune.
Ok I guess I'll just end here for now...
More pics for your eyes to feast...but dont get caught drooling for I'm seriously not responsible for whatsoever effects the following pics might have on you...see at your own RISK!
Man...being born with such a face...*sigh* is a desire that everyone wished they had. But, me so happen to be his friend...MUHAHAHAHA! So I seriously do not have the desire to have a pretty face...eventhough deep down inside still linger some envy. Come on, let's face it...60 billion people in the world and say like a 0.00000000000000001% of the population are blessed with such features? Ok did I blasted the proportion a bit too far? Well it do make perfect sense that only a small nano minority as compared to the majority are considered here AND SO WHAT DO THE REST OF US DO?We work our lard ass off slogging every single shitty day trying to please someone be it out bosses, girlfriends, boyfriends, strangers, friends...the list go on. My point is that the social norm allow pretty faces to get a lot of things done much easier. ESPECIALLY where customer service or sales or advertising is involved. But hey don't fret...fear not 'cos there's always 2 sides of the coin...so all I can suggest is that we just have to find our own potential and work on it. If you succeed, hey presto! Charisma is born...and charisma is...well I don't have to spell it out for you rite? In case you are cracking your silly brains out figuring WHAT THE FUCK am I talking about? Well I just so happen to miss my daily shot of JIM BEAM BLACK and that explains the silly blabbering! Pardon me but really...mesmerise with charisma is a lot more potent and lethal
that a pretty face. Not I'm not saying that having a pretty face is not good but I'm just suggesting an alternatives to those who are not blessed with such fortune.
Ok I guess I'll just end here for now...
A new beginning, a new hope...
- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -
Ha the title sounds like a rip off from StarWars...but at least there's some truth to that. Am I sad, I ask myself the same question over and over again...and my answer? Well denial is lying. A brand new day, a brand new week followed by months and years...it has started and there's no turning back. I kinda knew it from the start the the inevitable day will arrive the day I started, it's like karma you know, you reap what you sow so there's simply no reason or whatsoever to blame anyone or anything else...believe is the only thing that truely matters. Yes it's just a simple "BELIEVE" that will probably keep even the darkest nightmares away and the most vivid dreams and hopes alive.
Somehow I really didn't expect the aftermath rippling effect to be of such a great scale. I guess I'm slow that's all like in the old times when I only get it after delay of some time. But this time is really different if I must state...for I'm pressing on and believing that preseverence will get me there somehow, someday. I have come so far so and the end is all that matters. It really doesn't matter how you get there...it's really the end that everyone and me will care. Ardous, yes but still each day I live by this faith that have kept me alive long enuff and have prevented me from falling...
A little farewell for now...but reunion is on the way...
Good luck and God bless...
Ha the title sounds like a rip off from StarWars...but at least there's some truth to that. Am I sad, I ask myself the same question over and over again...and my answer? Well denial is lying. A brand new day, a brand new week followed by months and years...it has started and there's no turning back. I kinda knew it from the start the the inevitable day will arrive the day I started, it's like karma you know, you reap what you sow so there's simply no reason or whatsoever to blame anyone or anything else...believe is the only thing that truely matters. Yes it's just a simple "BELIEVE" that will probably keep even the darkest nightmares away and the most vivid dreams and hopes alive.
Somehow I really didn't expect the aftermath rippling effect to be of such a great scale. I guess I'm slow that's all like in the old times when I only get it after delay of some time. But this time is really different if I must state...for I'm pressing on and believing that preseverence will get me there somehow, someday. I have come so far so and the end is all that matters. It really doesn't matter how you get there...it's really the end that everyone and me will care. Ardous, yes but still each day I live by this faith that have kept me alive long enuff and have prevented me from falling...
A little farewell for now...but reunion is on the way...
Good luck and God bless...
Thursday, August 03, 2006
Welcome to my SCREWED UP life...
- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -
Heavens really make sport of man...with less than 56 hours to go, shit happens! With money being the issue which I never thought even in my darkest nightmares would befall on me. With a simple you-pay-for-me-first thingy and later then I pay you back kinda stuff 'cos I didn't bring enuff money resulting in a stand off with much ugly and distasteful information being pried from me...I am utterly disappointed. I was screaming "WHY?" last nite to gain control of my dispersed soul, to recollect my self back and to not collapse in disappointment.
So with so much guilt and disappointment, I really wonder how I can function properly today at work. I am really not in the mood for anything now. Lost is an understatement and I forcast a really bad storm brewing in me. I'm so FUCKED today...
SCREWED up...SCREWED up! Great disappointment befalls when your GREAT expectations fall despite the tremendous effort and the inhuman sacrifices that you commited. I have sinned, in fact I have sinned so deeply that redemption is out of the question. God please have mercy on my soul...
Heavens really make sport of man...with less than 56 hours to go, shit happens! With money being the issue which I never thought even in my darkest nightmares would befall on me. With a simple you-pay-for-me-first thingy and later then I pay you back kinda stuff 'cos I didn't bring enuff money resulting in a stand off with much ugly and distasteful information being pried from me...I am utterly disappointed. I was screaming "WHY?" last nite to gain control of my dispersed soul, to recollect my self back and to not collapse in disappointment.
So with so much guilt and disappointment, I really wonder how I can function properly today at work. I am really not in the mood for anything now. Lost is an understatement and I forcast a really bad storm brewing in me. I'm so FUCKED today...
SCREWED up...SCREWED up! Great disappointment befalls when your GREAT expectations fall despite the tremendous effort and the inhuman sacrifices that you commited. I have sinned, in fact I have sinned so deeply that redemption is out of the question. God please have mercy on my soul...
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
The clock is ticking by the seconds...
- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -
Today is August 2...and so what may you ask. Well Aug 6 marks a really significant day in my life. There is so much to look for and so much to worry for and so much to dream for. But right now it's just work and work and keep the dough rollin' in so I can dream...yes I said DREAM 'cos the dough will make the dreams come true. Well at least there's some truth to me so what about you?
Having dreams? Yeah everyone have dreams...'cos that's what push us on, that's what we work for and that's what we live for. So having dreams aside, the big question is that can you realise it? Now get the big picture...dreaming is as easy as saying I want this, I want that but how to realise it is another thing altogether. But I believe that some how if you can keep the dream alive and work your ass off and not stop till you get there...hmmm...you might just make it.
I love money 'cos i really hate to live on just "ENUFF" if you know what I mean...so go work your ass off and keep the cash coming in...I guess a phrase that I borrow from my pal Lawrence, "Nothing is more happier than seeing 5 digits rollin' into your bank account each month!" Definitely, nothing beats that!
Today is August 2...and so what may you ask. Well Aug 6 marks a really significant day in my life. There is so much to look for and so much to worry for and so much to dream for. But right now it's just work and work and keep the dough rollin' in so I can dream...yes I said DREAM 'cos the dough will make the dreams come true. Well at least there's some truth to me so what about you?
Having dreams? Yeah everyone have dreams...'cos that's what push us on, that's what we work for and that's what we live for. So having dreams aside, the big question is that can you realise it? Now get the big picture...dreaming is as easy as saying I want this, I want that but how to realise it is another thing altogether. But I believe that some how if you can keep the dream alive and work your ass off and not stop till you get there...hmmm...you might just make it.
I love money 'cos i really hate to live on just "ENUFF" if you know what I mean...so go work your ass off and keep the cash coming in...I guess a phrase that I borrow from my pal Lawrence, "Nothing is more happier than seeing 5 digits rollin' into your bank account each month!" Definitely, nothing beats that!
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Here we go...
- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -
So it's true that one can be really "Suay" (Unlucky) during the Chinese Ghost Festival. Well on the 1st day, the MRT that I took to work in the morning broke down and that resulted in a 15min delay. Thank God I always go work early so I didn't got screwed! Then my shoe fell apart while I was working...AND...yesterday I was so screwed by my boss 'cos I messed up some of the vital proccess that affected operations...I mean WTF!@#$%...If you are suay...you really are damn suay..the shits just keep raining down on you. But...I held on with my good old FUCK CARE ATTITUDE and all things just passed and today it's a brand new day so I ain't gonna let no shit from yesterday affect me.
Besides, I'm just gonna get the dough for 3 months so I can cover my expenses in Japan...but after that...God knows what shit will come...well no point wasting precious time and energy over such trivial, redundant matters. When it comes, I say "BRING IT ON...!"
So it's true that one can be really "Suay" (Unlucky) during the Chinese Ghost Festival. Well on the 1st day, the MRT that I took to work in the morning broke down and that resulted in a 15min delay. Thank God I always go work early so I didn't got screwed! Then my shoe fell apart while I was working...AND...yesterday I was so screwed by my boss 'cos I messed up some of the vital proccess that affected operations...I mean WTF!@#$%...If you are suay...you really are damn suay..the shits just keep raining down on you. But...I held on with my good old FUCK CARE ATTITUDE and all things just passed and today it's a brand new day so I ain't gonna let no shit from yesterday affect me.
Besides, I'm just gonna get the dough for 3 months so I can cover my expenses in Japan...but after that...God knows what shit will come...well no point wasting precious time and energy over such trivial, redundant matters. When it comes, I say "BRING IT ON...!"
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