More skating...alas progress!!!

- Fate is decided by God but destiny is the path you choose to get there -

Just got back from skating at Esplanade. Now a frequent place for me to practice my slalom. Was there with Bryan and Kent and later in the nite, another stranger joined in. Learnt the second part of "Crazy" from him and by the end of the nite, I could more or less get it. Hehe, talent do play a part I must confess. Picked it up and got it done only for 1 day. Mastery level - 30%.

Anyway got many confessions to make...like hallucinations from the past, especially strong after seeing the S.H.E. MTV and the KISS one. And also after reading Vamp's blog and her comment. Beautiful memories from the past that saddens me at times. So the below section is dedicated to YOU Vamp for triggering your pasts unintentionally...hope you find something of use...

I guess the most noble form and also the highest level of love one can attain is to see someone that left you while you loved him the most getting married with someone else or being happy with someone else despite that you still love him so much and can sacrifice almost anything for him. Sometimes even giving them blessings silently from your heart. No you don't hate him for leaving you high and dry and all those suicidal shits you'd to go through nor do you hate her for taking him away from you. You wished them eternal blessings from your bleeding heart and hold on to the sweet but tearful memories he gave you. Really difficult to attaain such noble love but once you are there, everything will fall into place nicely and you'll not breed vengence. Rather you'll finally understand that loving someone is not to possess him but to let him go free even if he strays and leave you. True happiness will arise only if you can accept the fact that he'd already left you and that seeing him happy in the arms of another person, you feel happy for him. It may take a while to get over him initially and it's inevitable to breed a little vengence but time will make you see that to truly love someone is to see him happy even if he's with someone else. I guess not many people can be so noble to give up their love to someone else and not breed hatred. Love is difficult to fully understand but to sacrifice yourself in exchange for his happiness is really really beautiful and genuine. Maybe someday he'll understand your sacrifices and return to your side once again but that's really rare as most guys can't forgo their pride. So live on and be strong and continue your search for the one that you can grow old with. Look around you and sometimes you might have miss someone that have been silently waiting for you. What you decide and do today decides your future. You are here today because of your decisions in the past so if you regret your past, you can still change your future so don't let illusions blind you. Time is the only constraint you face so don't brood too long on the past and waste your future. Have faith and believe and you'll reach what you seek. The past is gone and it might be a schema that affect your decisions but it can be error prone too so don't rely on it too much.