- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -
Just finished editing the "Love" entry...grabbed a couple of Romeo and Juliet pics off the net and piece them together using photoshop...haha somehow I like that movie in particular so was like thinking of it when I actually was writing the "Love" entry...nothing much today, went for my Japanese lesson today and the weather was lke really freaking hot...toasting my brain...yikes and to think that I still have to use it for my exams...so that's it for now...tata and enjoy
Saturday, April 30, 2005
Friday, April 29, 2005
Love
- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -
Seems like there are so many love lorn souls out there...so many of them like myself have been plagued by the trials and tribulations of love, a simple yet complex and profound term that seems to bring misery and joy to all that seek it...hmmm so many people around me have I witnessed those tragedies unfold one after another that make me ponder that is it in our lives that when God created us, he included in each and everyone of us a strong and powerful element that brings forth both misery and pain and fusing joy and sweetness...a force so powerful that many who seek it were tormented for their failure to conquer it...and how it bring strangers together and it tear lovers apart...so warm yet so cold...so here it is an entry to console all those who seek love and have suffered it's warth terribly and also for those who conquered and triumph that live to tale the tale... There are far too many definition of LOVE but to put it simply according to Oxford's dictionary - "A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness. ". So there you have it, the official meaning of love...but the explanation is simple and easily comprehended...but how many of us really understood the true, genuine meaning beneath those shallow words?...I believe many of us have our own definition of love according to our experiences so I suppose everyone of us somehow or another who have been in love or had been love is bound to have a deeper understanding of what exactly love is and those who have not...will just have to stick to the explanation from the dictionary or from their friends who have actually seek it... To truly understand what love is and to put it in mere mortal words seems like quite an impossible task or rather what we have is more like a general or approximation of what exactly it is...well that's the truth I guess...it is just more than one can ever imagine what exaactly is LOVE? The origin of all sweetness and also the root of all tragedies...well the LOVE I am refering here is not to be confused with love for money, cars, etc...it is the LOVE for someone you like...sort of like a girfriend or boyfriend thing or simply someone that you wanna spend the rest of your life with...well I guess you sort of get the picture rite? So I guees I'll just continue...like one of my good friend used to say when you don't start, you'll never have to end and the beginning is always nice and sweet but the ending is always bitter and woeful...and I suppose she's pretty much correct. How many of us is actually able to walk away suavely after a breakup and pretend that it never existed in the first place? I mean from the breakup of your first love? Your first TRUE love?...*sigh* maybe there are but the numbers are so small I can hardly recall anyone around me but maybe, just maybe someone out there...and that there are 3 person that each and everyone of us is fated to meet in our life time...the 1st being ourselves which at times, we still couldn't even understand...and the second being the person you love most and the 3rd being the person who love you most...and in almost most cases, the person that you love most will never be the person who love you most...eventhough there are times when they are actually the same person...it's really rare and usually I think it's really like a miracle when that happens…then again I must say it hardly ever happens…at least not to anyone around me that I know…Well as you'd probably have guess it, the person you love most will be the same person that hurt you most and the one that love you most? You've guessed it...the one you'll hurt most and in most cases, one is bound to meet the 2nd person first and then the 3rd person...well there may be a reverse between the 2nd and the 3rd person in terms of who will one meet first...but take the scenario of meeting the 2nd person first( yeah, the one that you loved most…) after that you've given out so much only to have him / her leaving you at the very end...naturally you'll feel hurt and all the other break-up related symtoms...but usually if that's the one that you swear to God that you love the most...the aftermath will leave you living a life of a totally different person altogether...you'll sort of hate that person initially after the break-up eventhough you wanted so badly that he / she will return to your side...
So the 1st stage after the breakup, you feel so hurt and your heart is bleeding like crazy, you can’t sleep, etc…...then comes stage 2nd where you feel numb...like losing all your interest in the opposite sex and all the things that you used to like...it's like a living zombie feeling...you do the same old routine each day without any goals, feelings and emotions, simply just living life aimlessly and at times, you ponder to yourselves why are you alive...then the last stage...the recovery stage when all the feelings of hurt returns and you regain sanity but the hurt is not as great as compared to the 1 st stage and so slowly you recover…That’s sort of what happens when the one you loved most leave you…after the recovery stage you’ll sort of feel like a different person altogether…like your mentality mature and you sort of have like a immunized feeling towards another relationship…so maybe after sometime later, you step into a relationship but I’m pretty much sure you’d put in all 100% at once because the scars left you battered but also smarter…tread lightly and see how much your other half outs in…some people will put in as much as how much their other half puts in but others will simply put in the slightest to keep the relationship alive…like the saying goes, once bitten, twice shy…
And then comes the one who loves you most…he / she would probably be like a reflection of you when you gave your everything for your previous EXs or to the one that you really loved. But somehow you’ve been hurt and you would not give in you 100% anymore and so you’ll tend to hurt he / she…
Well the conclusion I can draw from here is that you can only shed tears once for the one that you loved most…all relationship after that, you simply won’t be the one who will shed tears in a break-up…that’s life I guessed…but then again there are people who choose to be stupid eventhough they weren’t born stupid…they’ve been hurt and each time they put in 100% in all their relationships hoping that their other half will appreciate it…*sigh* I can only condemn these silly dick heads and laugh at their lame plight each time they suffered a break-up because they are beyond redemption…I’ll only help those who choose to help themselves and those who are born stupid…those who choose to be stupid?…let’s just say we let them be tormented and burn…so we have less irritating dick heads whining around us…
So I am quite inquisitive about the love life of others but please do not confuse it with sex lives ok…as for the later I’m simply not interested for I believe that sex is a participative sports and not a spectators’ sport…I only like to hear all sort of problems and affairs of the heart…meaning relationship problems…my email is there on the left panel…you know what to do if you have a relationship problem rite? Haha I’m more than willing to lend a listening ear…no it’s not that I am doctor or something like that but let’s just say I’ve been thru too much and have seen too much to be able to give the right advice…I believe that there are still so much I can share here but it’d definitely be too lengthy and it’d be too boring to read on…so for the sake of other fellow readers, I shall end here…
"A pair of star crossed lovers."
Seems like there are so many love lorn souls out there...so many of them like myself have been plagued by the trials and tribulations of love, a simple yet complex and profound term that seems to bring misery and joy to all that seek it...hmmm so many people around me have I witnessed those tragedies unfold one after another that make me ponder that is it in our lives that when God created us, he included in each and everyone of us a strong and powerful element that brings forth both misery and pain and fusing joy and sweetness...a force so powerful that many who seek it were tormented for their failure to conquer it...and how it bring strangers together and it tear lovers apart...so warm yet so cold...so here it is an entry to console all those who seek love and have suffered it's warth terribly and also for those who conquered and triumph that live to tale the tale... There are far too many definition of LOVE but to put it simply according to Oxford's dictionary - "A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness. ". So there you have it, the official meaning of love...but the explanation is simple and easily comprehended...but how many of us really understood the true, genuine meaning beneath those shallow words?...I believe many of us have our own definition of love according to our experiences so I suppose everyone of us somehow or another who have been in love or had been love is bound to have a deeper understanding of what exactly love is and those who have not...will just have to stick to the explanation from the dictionary or from their friends who have actually seek it... To truly understand what love is and to put it in mere mortal words seems like quite an impossible task or rather what we have is more like a general or approximation of what exactly it is...well that's the truth I guess...it is just more than one can ever imagine what exaactly is LOVE? The origin of all sweetness and also the root of all tragedies...well the LOVE I am refering here is not to be confused with love for money, cars, etc...it is the LOVE for someone you like...sort of like a girfriend or boyfriend thing or simply someone that you wanna spend the rest of your life with...well I guess you sort of get the picture rite? So I guees I'll just continue...like one of my good friend used to say when you don't start, you'll never have to end and the beginning is always nice and sweet but the ending is always bitter and woeful...and I suppose she's pretty much correct. How many of us is actually able to walk away suavely after a breakup and pretend that it never existed in the first place? I mean from the breakup of your first love? Your first TRUE love?...*sigh* maybe there are but the numbers are so small I can hardly recall anyone around me but maybe, just maybe someone out there...and that there are 3 person that each and everyone of us is fated to meet in our life time...the 1st being ourselves which at times, we still couldn't even understand...and the second being the person you love most and the 3rd being the person who love you most...and in almost most cases, the person that you love most will never be the person who love you most...eventhough there are times when they are actually the same person...it's really rare and usually I think it's really like a miracle when that happens…then again I must say it hardly ever happens…at least not to anyone around me that I know…Well as you'd probably have guess it, the person you love most will be the same person that hurt you most and the one that love you most? You've guessed it...the one you'll hurt most and in most cases, one is bound to meet the 2nd person first and then the 3rd person...well there may be a reverse between the 2nd and the 3rd person in terms of who will one meet first...but take the scenario of meeting the 2nd person first( yeah, the one that you loved most…) after that you've given out so much only to have him / her leaving you at the very end...naturally you'll feel hurt and all the other break-up related symtoms...but usually if that's the one that you swear to God that you love the most...the aftermath will leave you living a life of a totally different person altogether...you'll sort of hate that person initially after the break-up eventhough you wanted so badly that he / she will return to your side...
So the 1st stage after the breakup, you feel so hurt and your heart is bleeding like crazy, you can’t sleep, etc…...then comes stage 2nd where you feel numb...like losing all your interest in the opposite sex and all the things that you used to like...it's like a living zombie feeling...you do the same old routine each day without any goals, feelings and emotions, simply just living life aimlessly and at times, you ponder to yourselves why are you alive...then the last stage...the recovery stage when all the feelings of hurt returns and you regain sanity but the hurt is not as great as compared to the 1 st stage and so slowly you recover…That’s sort of what happens when the one you loved most leave you…after the recovery stage you’ll sort of feel like a different person altogether…like your mentality mature and you sort of have like a immunized feeling towards another relationship…so maybe after sometime later, you step into a relationship but I’m pretty much sure you’d put in all 100% at once because the scars left you battered but also smarter…tread lightly and see how much your other half outs in…some people will put in as much as how much their other half puts in but others will simply put in the slightest to keep the relationship alive…like the saying goes, once bitten, twice shy…
And then comes the one who loves you most…he / she would probably be like a reflection of you when you gave your everything for your previous EXs or to the one that you really loved. But somehow you’ve been hurt and you would not give in you 100% anymore and so you’ll tend to hurt he / she…
Well the conclusion I can draw from here is that you can only shed tears once for the one that you loved most…all relationship after that, you simply won’t be the one who will shed tears in a break-up…that’s life I guessed…but then again there are people who choose to be stupid eventhough they weren’t born stupid…they’ve been hurt and each time they put in 100% in all their relationships hoping that their other half will appreciate it…*sigh* I can only condemn these silly dick heads and laugh at their lame plight each time they suffered a break-up because they are beyond redemption…I’ll only help those who choose to help themselves and those who are born stupid…those who choose to be stupid?…let’s just say we let them be tormented and burn…so we have less irritating dick heads whining around us…
So I am quite inquisitive about the love life of others but please do not confuse it with sex lives ok…as for the later I’m simply not interested for I believe that sex is a participative sports and not a spectators’ sport…I only like to hear all sort of problems and affairs of the heart…meaning relationship problems…my email is there on the left panel…you know what to do if you have a relationship problem rite? Haha I’m more than willing to lend a listening ear…no it’s not that I am doctor or something like that but let’s just say I’ve been thru too much and have seen too much to be able to give the right advice…I believe that there are still so much I can share here but it’d definitely be too lengthy and it’d be too boring to read on…so for the sake of other fellow readers, I shall end here…
"A pair of star crossed lovers."
Thursday, April 28, 2005
The Beginning of the Story
- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -
Okay here it is...somehow I have decided to add the "The Story" tab under links to let you read what exactly happen that made me live a different life today...I've sort of decided to narrate it like fairy tale to keep those memories vivid and sweet...the first installment is up and I'll work on the second and hopefully the third...and I hope that it can answer a lot of questions that one seeks...
Thursday 28 April 2005, 14 days remaining to the Big Exam
- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -
Here it is...a little flash back from yesterday...called Theresa sometime around 10 plus in the nite to check on how she's doing...its been a long time...yeah I know that's why I am calling up on my friends to check how are they doing...as everyone's so busy we hardly have time for catching up with everyone around us all at one go...so everytime I have that little bit of idling time, might as well use it to check up on my friends to see how they are doing...if you take a good 5 to 10 minutes now to sit down and really recall, how many of those long lost friends that you used to once chilled out with had you since last contacted...? Quite a few I guess rite...well it kinda nice to check on your friends once in a while to let them know that they are not forgotten and appreciated...
Okay so back to Theresa, updated her on quite a few stuffs and I was quite surprised that she too was captivated by Sine's twisted charm...Theresa actually told me that she find the doll quite nice even though it's a little scary...haha another victim of my Little Sine...haha
Downloaded a mame emulator yesterday evening to play those long lost arcade games...haha cool...revive my good old memories...like alien vs predator, the punisher...and this morning I actually did a little screenshot of the game with a little touch up with photoshop...now its like we can tweak the credits in the game rather than back in those days, we have to actually spend loads of money just to complete the game 'cos I know, yeah maybe I really suck back then...haha to think that how technology have evolved so much to where it is today...and how I actually started out with the very first Nintendo Entertainment System...think it was like in 1986s to 1990s where the Mario Brothers rule...haha then it was like a Sega 16bit Mega Drive and so on...to where it is today...wow technology is really wonderful...I really can't imagine how to survive without these hightech gadgets...for instance how many of us can survive without a handphone for longer than 2 days...? I bet its really a small minority that can't even fit my house...haha not stressing that my house is that big but it's just a 4 room HDB model A unit...that's how little the minority is...
*sigh* we are so dependent on technology somehow I feel that there is obviously the pros and cons which are too long to list...and how I always marvelled at how technology and science move together that all those sci-fi stuffs are becoming reality...like cloning, space travel, etc...
okay like the title suggest, exactly 2 more weeks so I better get my studying cells to work now...in the mean time please help me enjoy more okie? I promise I'll definitely pay you back wih interest after my exams...
Here it is...a little flash back from yesterday...called Theresa sometime around 10 plus in the nite to check on how she's doing...its been a long time...yeah I know that's why I am calling up on my friends to check how are they doing...as everyone's so busy we hardly have time for catching up with everyone around us all at one go...so everytime I have that little bit of idling time, might as well use it to check up on my friends to see how they are doing...if you take a good 5 to 10 minutes now to sit down and really recall, how many of those long lost friends that you used to once chilled out with had you since last contacted...? Quite a few I guess rite...well it kinda nice to check on your friends once in a while to let them know that they are not forgotten and appreciated...
Okay so back to Theresa, updated her on quite a few stuffs and I was quite surprised that she too was captivated by Sine's twisted charm...Theresa actually told me that she find the doll quite nice even though it's a little scary...haha another victim of my Little Sine...haha
Downloaded a mame emulator yesterday evening to play those long lost arcade games...haha cool...revive my good old memories...like alien vs predator, the punisher...and this morning I actually did a little screenshot of the game with a little touch up with photoshop...now its like we can tweak the credits in the game rather than back in those days, we have to actually spend loads of money just to complete the game 'cos I know, yeah maybe I really suck back then...haha to think that how technology have evolved so much to where it is today...and how I actually started out with the very first Nintendo Entertainment System...think it was like in 1986s to 1990s where the Mario Brothers rule...haha then it was like a Sega 16bit Mega Drive and so on...to where it is today...wow technology is really wonderful...I really can't imagine how to survive without these hightech gadgets...for instance how many of us can survive without a handphone for longer than 2 days...? I bet its really a small minority that can't even fit my house...haha not stressing that my house is that big but it's just a 4 room HDB model A unit...that's how little the minority is...
*sigh* we are so dependent on technology somehow I feel that there is obviously the pros and cons which are too long to list...and how I always marvelled at how technology and science move together that all those sci-fi stuffs are becoming reality...like cloning, space travel, etc...
okay like the title suggest, exactly 2 more weeks so I better get my studying cells to work now...in the mean time please help me enjoy more okie? I promise I'll definitely pay you back wih interest after my exams...
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
The Great Evil
- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -
Somehow the title suggests that a great evil is brewing somewhere on this continent but searh no further, for the realm that you are reading belongs to the Prince of Darkness himself, The Great Evil...foul mood today, an accumulation from yesterday...a piled up of a series of unfortunate events...in layman terms, I your Royal Highness is not happy...and the warth that's overflowing, killing the innocents souls around...too bad that's life I must say, isn't always smooth sailing...it's seldom that I experience this kinda foul evil stench that's lurking and poisoning my mind but once in a while, it just happens. Evelyn was like bombarding my poor phone yesterday as she's bored...come on, give me a break...*sigh* and today I went to school to collect the remaining of my mock exam papers...so now I have all my test papers back, quite a disappointment. I sort of expected to fail one of the four and I did...really badly and the one that I sort of had great confidence in, failed me once again...not that I didn't managed to cleared it but I did pass but the marks ere not quite what I'd expected...
So that's a little evidence of events that sort of upset me...the exams are near and I really cannot afford to lose my concentration to distractions...I must be determined and ruthless...I must not be distracted, I must regained full focus...I am determined that if I put my heart and soul to it, I can achieved and surpass my own limits, attained a greater level...harnessing the great evil energy and directing it to the right channels will enhance my efficiency but it ain't a easy feat given my darkness tainted soul...but for the sake of my destiny, I must accomplished it at whatever costs...I'll survived...I know I will...
So now after letting my rage out, I must continue my ardous task and make haste of my journey...make Darkness expel the good in you
Somehow the title suggests that a great evil is brewing somewhere on this continent but searh no further, for the realm that you are reading belongs to the Prince of Darkness himself, The Great Evil...foul mood today, an accumulation from yesterday...a piled up of a series of unfortunate events...in layman terms, I your Royal Highness is not happy...and the warth that's overflowing, killing the innocents souls around...too bad that's life I must say, isn't always smooth sailing...it's seldom that I experience this kinda foul evil stench that's lurking and poisoning my mind but once in a while, it just happens. Evelyn was like bombarding my poor phone yesterday as she's bored...come on, give me a break...*sigh* and today I went to school to collect the remaining of my mock exam papers...so now I have all my test papers back, quite a disappointment. I sort of expected to fail one of the four and I did...really badly and the one that I sort of had great confidence in, failed me once again...not that I didn't managed to cleared it but I did pass but the marks ere not quite what I'd expected...
So that's a little evidence of events that sort of upset me...the exams are near and I really cannot afford to lose my concentration to distractions...I must be determined and ruthless...I must not be distracted, I must regained full focus...I am determined that if I put my heart and soul to it, I can achieved and surpass my own limits, attained a greater level...harnessing the great evil energy and directing it to the right channels will enhance my efficiency but it ain't a easy feat given my darkness tainted soul...but for the sake of my destiny, I must accomplished it at whatever costs...I'll survived...I know I will...
So now after letting my rage out, I must continue my ardous task and make haste of my journey...make Darkness expel the good in you
Monday, April 25, 2005
Changing Background Music
- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -
So here it goes, just came back home from school...went there to study around 12 noon, met my god-bro Noah there while searching for a place to study...actually arrangd to meet Violet to teach her accounting today but she left like after meeting only for less than 10 min as she claimed that she had something urgent to attend to...so I studied there with Noah
Oh boy the weather is so damn hot and humid today I almost died drowning in my own sweat...and yikes, I hate the 50% and beyond humidity level 'cos it sort of make me sweat and the after state of being so sticky all over and the bacteria that's brewing... it's so uncomfortable and how I wished I could just undress right now...too bad there is no nudist arena or beaches in this sunny island called Singapore...so sad...maybe I should travel to like US to experience one...haha I mean what's there to be shy about...sorry but I must confess I'm quite a nudist myself...I hate the restrictions that clothes possess...though they originated to protect the body but have evolved to an entirely new phenomenon that actually reflects artistic sense and limitless boundries for creativity... But back at home I'm usually down to my boxers and sometimes even nothing if there's no one else around my house...but of course the curtains are usually drawn at times like these as I guess those shallow-minded individuals that are lacking every bit of confidence in their own bodies and to actually forget the very fact that they are homo sapiens, 1 of the many breeds of animals that roam the surface of Mother Earth...loitering in the vicinity that will complain and make a big issue out of it...*sigh* these twits just don't know their real existence yet for if they know, they'll probably take their own lives. The truth is that these dumb scumbags are created to piss others off and get wasted in the process more like a despensible pawn to waste so that we, the master beings can attain a higher level of nirvana...
Sometimes I really wonder why am I being surrounded by low- intellect, filth whose stupidity never fails to amaze me each day...maybe that's what the law of nature defines that it's the very existence of such filth that allow us to find our inner self...the true meaing of life...I am certainly not saying that I'm the greatest here but there are always bound to be beings far more superior for us to even fathom but at leat for now, I know that I'm definitely not the filth at the lowest of the hierarchy...
Oh yeah and so I actually received a few comments from my friends that my opening theme song is somehow crude and vulgar...hmmm...so eventhough I, your royal highness appreciate it very much, but for the sake of the masses, I've decided to change it...okay you happy now? Haha one's gem is the other's trash...so I've to conclude that well you cannot please everyone in the world but at least please those worthy and pissed those filth...haha it's either you're with me or against me...so that's the way it goes...
Yesterday, I actually went out to get my younger brother his 21st birthday present...Little Miss Sine...haha...went to Far East Square to check out of the shop that I got my previous Sine doll if he could sell me the other Sine at the same price but too bad he can't so I've to get it from David, my toy supplier...but it wasn't that bad...I actually got it from David at a reasonable price (actually it's a really cheap price...almost at cost...!!!)...I picked it up from him in the night around 8 plus. Didn't carry it in a bag, I just sort of hold it and during the journey home, a lot of curious eyes were actually looking at Little Sine...haha comments like "What's that's he's holding?" and "It looks like a doll but its really nice..." were heard through out the journey...but as usual, I, your royal highness ignored all distractions and brought Sine home safely without a single scratch on the box...haha and so there it is Little Sine for my brother...and so he claims that Sine looks really really nice... so here's a little more of Sine as my digicam broke down so I had to actually ripped a few pics of the net...
"Now ain't Sine look just sooooo sweeeeet!"
so that's it for now...and Happy Birthday Alvin...
So here it goes, just came back home from school...went there to study around 12 noon, met my god-bro Noah there while searching for a place to study...actually arrangd to meet Violet to teach her accounting today but she left like after meeting only for less than 10 min as she claimed that she had something urgent to attend to...so I studied there with Noah
Oh boy the weather is so damn hot and humid today I almost died drowning in my own sweat...and yikes, I hate the 50% and beyond humidity level 'cos it sort of make me sweat and the after state of being so sticky all over and the bacteria that's brewing... it's so uncomfortable and how I wished I could just undress right now...too bad there is no nudist arena or beaches in this sunny island called Singapore...so sad...maybe I should travel to like US to experience one...haha I mean what's there to be shy about...sorry but I must confess I'm quite a nudist myself...I hate the restrictions that clothes possess...though they originated to protect the body but have evolved to an entirely new phenomenon that actually reflects artistic sense and limitless boundries for creativity... But back at home I'm usually down to my boxers and sometimes even nothing if there's no one else around my house...but of course the curtains are usually drawn at times like these as I guess those shallow-minded individuals that are lacking every bit of confidence in their own bodies and to actually forget the very fact that they are homo sapiens, 1 of the many breeds of animals that roam the surface of Mother Earth...loitering in the vicinity that will complain and make a big issue out of it...*sigh* these twits just don't know their real existence yet for if they know, they'll probably take their own lives. The truth is that these dumb scumbags are created to piss others off and get wasted in the process more like a despensible pawn to waste so that we, the master beings can attain a higher level of nirvana...
Sometimes I really wonder why am I being surrounded by low- intellect, filth whose stupidity never fails to amaze me each day...maybe that's what the law of nature defines that it's the very existence of such filth that allow us to find our inner self...the true meaing of life...I am certainly not saying that I'm the greatest here but there are always bound to be beings far more superior for us to even fathom but at leat for now, I know that I'm definitely not the filth at the lowest of the hierarchy...
Oh yeah and so I actually received a few comments from my friends that my opening theme song is somehow crude and vulgar...hmmm...so eventhough I, your royal highness appreciate it very much, but for the sake of the masses, I've decided to change it...okay you happy now? Haha one's gem is the other's trash...so I've to conclude that well you cannot please everyone in the world but at least please those worthy and pissed those filth...haha it's either you're with me or against me...so that's the way it goes...
Yesterday, I actually went out to get my younger brother his 21st birthday present...Little Miss Sine...haha...went to Far East Square to check out of the shop that I got my previous Sine doll if he could sell me the other Sine at the same price but too bad he can't so I've to get it from David, my toy supplier...but it wasn't that bad...I actually got it from David at a reasonable price (actually it's a really cheap price...almost at cost...!!!)...I picked it up from him in the night around 8 plus. Didn't carry it in a bag, I just sort of hold it and during the journey home, a lot of curious eyes were actually looking at Little Sine...haha comments like "What's that's he's holding?" and "It looks like a doll but its really nice..." were heard through out the journey...but as usual, I, your royal highness ignored all distractions and brought Sine home safely without a single scratch on the box...haha and so there it is Little Sine for my brother...and so he claims that Sine looks really really nice... so here's a little more of Sine as my digicam broke down so I had to actually ripped a few pics of the net...
"Now ain't Sine look just sooooo sweeeeet!"so that's it for now...and Happy Birthday Alvin...
Saturday, April 23, 2005
Celebration of Independence
- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -
Okay, my younger bro's 21st brithday's on Monday, 25 April and we are celebrating for him today and I just got home from my japanese class...had a little test today and was kinda tough despite being a so called "mini" test...oh yeah a couple of days ago, a good friend of mine was introduced to this confession page of mine and after reading a couple of entries here and there she actually asked me who the angels were and I must say she really knows me well as she is obviously the first and only person to actually ask me that sensitive question...and really reading thru the lines to figure out my mystery messages hidden in there...haha so you there reading this go figure it too...haha really a close confidante she is...well if lets just say that if anyone else is still wondering who these angels are, I, your royal highness will politely request you to go figure it out...it's for me to know and for you to find out...no pain no gain...haha you pathetic insolence imps...okay I apologise for insulting your intelligence...haha
so here we are awaiting the rest of my relatives to storm my humble little cottage in the west regions of this little island recognised my a mere and almost invisible little dot on the map known to many as Singapore...haha a conversation earlier whole on my way home with my dear friend Amber suggested that given my close relationship with my brother, I should actually give him a present...well that did not cross my mind but maybe after Amber's suggestion, I might actually go get something given my financial plight...haha I'm just pure lazy self-confessed procrastinating lazy aspiring professional gamer...haha that's so real...so okay I've decided to get my bro Little Sine as he just walked by a while ago and said he actually liked it...haha cool...now even he is unable to escape Sine's twisted charm...( cheers Sine!!!)
Somehow I can feel my stomach crying out loud to be fed so I guess I've to go grab a bite soon and oh yeah a friend of mine actually commented that my blog is too long-winded...well I don't quite agree as it's really pointless to post an entry with like a couple of lines...lame rite?...like somehow the brain's not functioning very well or defeating the purpose of having a blog...I suppose a blog IS for one's to pour out everything especially the truth and nothing but the truth...come on be honest...don't lie especially to yourself...it's after all your own damn blog so what's wrong with confessing all your sins here?...at least for me I'm definitely not afraid to let my friends know that hey, this is really what me, the Evil Prince of Darkness is thinking and those "Mask-bearing" friends can just freak themselves out to find out my true evil nature and fuck off...haha burn in the cauldron of my raging flames and that those true friends who accept me despite knowing that I am the incarnation of pure evil, will continue to savor the loom of evil that I cast.
okay so much for now...sayonara ja mata ne
Okay, my younger bro's 21st brithday's on Monday, 25 April and we are celebrating for him today and I just got home from my japanese class...had a little test today and was kinda tough despite being a so called "mini" test...oh yeah a couple of days ago, a good friend of mine was introduced to this confession page of mine and after reading a couple of entries here and there she actually asked me who the angels were and I must say she really knows me well as she is obviously the first and only person to actually ask me that sensitive question...and really reading thru the lines to figure out my mystery messages hidden in there...haha so you there reading this go figure it too...haha really a close confidante she is...well if lets just say that if anyone else is still wondering who these angels are, I, your royal highness will politely request you to go figure it out...it's for me to know and for you to find out...no pain no gain...haha you pathetic insolence imps...okay I apologise for insulting your intelligence...haha
so here we are awaiting the rest of my relatives to storm my humble little cottage in the west regions of this little island recognised my a mere and almost invisible little dot on the map known to many as Singapore...haha a conversation earlier whole on my way home with my dear friend Amber suggested that given my close relationship with my brother, I should actually give him a present...well that did not cross my mind but maybe after Amber's suggestion, I might actually go get something given my financial plight...haha I'm just pure lazy self-confessed procrastinating lazy aspiring professional gamer...haha that's so real...so okay I've decided to get my bro Little Sine as he just walked by a while ago and said he actually liked it...haha cool...now even he is unable to escape Sine's twisted charm...( cheers Sine!!!)
Somehow I can feel my stomach crying out loud to be fed so I guess I've to go grab a bite soon and oh yeah a friend of mine actually commented that my blog is too long-winded...well I don't quite agree as it's really pointless to post an entry with like a couple of lines...lame rite?...like somehow the brain's not functioning very well or defeating the purpose of having a blog...I suppose a blog IS for one's to pour out everything especially the truth and nothing but the truth...come on be honest...don't lie especially to yourself...it's after all your own damn blog so what's wrong with confessing all your sins here?...at least for me I'm definitely not afraid to let my friends know that hey, this is really what me, the Evil Prince of Darkness is thinking and those "Mask-bearing" friends can just freak themselves out to find out my true evil nature and fuck off...haha burn in the cauldron of my raging flames and that those true friends who accept me despite knowing that I am the incarnation of pure evil, will continue to savor the loom of evil that I cast.
okay so much for now...sayonara ja mata ne
Friday, April 22, 2005
Hail from The Land of The Rising Suns
- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -
Back from school after the really pissing noisy morning and just check my gmail minutes ago and hey I've got a mail from my friend from Japan...Makoto-San and his gal Brenda and it seems like most of my japanese friends have graduated from their English Language Course in TLI, Nara, Japan. Somehow it seems like studying japanese is so much tougher than them actually studying English but what to do, that's life what so no complains, that's the path I choose and so it will be my destiny...(sounds familiar right...haha) so here's Makoto San and his gal...
It's like so cool, I braided my hair just this week and Mac San did his hair too...haha what coincidence and it seems like it's really nice having a hell lots of friends from all over the world and that they come visit me...so envious rite? Haha that's just too bad, unless you get your fat lard ass of that chair now and go make some new foreign friends, rather than reading my blog and kill yourself in the process...haha
This dude Mac San's got really cool and fine features, definitely idol cut material and believe me, he's really funny and whacky like me and the rest of my friends (you know who I'm refering to rite...haha) and his gal, Brenda, SWEEET!!! but too bad she will be my future "Da Sao" ( Sister in law...haha) so gotta treat her with respect okay? Cheers Mac San...
And so it's like only last year that I actually met Mac, Momoko, Brenda and the rest of the Japanese friends...well, I'm actually studying Japanese Language at Tenrikyo Language Institute (Singapore) 'cos the people there are nice, and it's really affordable (less than SGD$250 for half a year) and my Sensei, Okada Sensei is really drop dead gorgeous...but too bad she's taken as well and her boyfriend is also damn good looking...haha and the lessons are leisurely spaced out so there's really a lot of time catered to get the foundation correct as it definitely get progressively tough as levels increase. By then it's purely up to one's will power and motivation to keep it going...but anyone interested to learn Japanese Language, please email me at shiroidevil@hotmail.com as I'll personally check out the next intake for you...and every year at late October till November, there's actually a cultural exchange programme where the japanese students studying English in Japan will come over here for 2 weeks and we get to mingle around with them...and the ratio is also around 4 to 6 guys and the rest 15 to 16 girls age ranging from 19 to 25...and I must confess, they are really an eye-opener for us locals...while there are always a few eye candy ones, the rest are just normal or simply plain looking (Duh?! ain't it obvious everywhere else?...). It's really an experience that I look forward to every year...
So much for straying from the topic again...now it says 6.22pm on my CPU's clock and it's like raining outside...the symphony of the falling rain drops really sounded pleasant and the air-con room I'm in...hmmm it like creating an artificial ambience of transience that's making my sub-consciousness calling out to me and fading my vision...in plain layman terms...I, your royal highness is sleepy...
okay enjoy yourselves the rest of this sweet melancholic evening now...tata and take care...
Back from school after the really pissing noisy morning and just check my gmail minutes ago and hey I've got a mail from my friend from Japan...Makoto-San and his gal Brenda and it seems like most of my japanese friends have graduated from their English Language Course in TLI, Nara, Japan. Somehow it seems like studying japanese is so much tougher than them actually studying English but what to do, that's life what so no complains, that's the path I choose and so it will be my destiny...(sounds familiar right...haha) so here's Makoto San and his gal...
It's like so cool, I braided my hair just this week and Mac San did his hair too...haha what coincidence and it seems like it's really nice having a hell lots of friends from all over the world and that they come visit me...so envious rite? Haha that's just too bad, unless you get your fat lard ass of that chair now and go make some new foreign friends, rather than reading my blog and kill yourself in the process...hahaThis dude Mac San's got really cool and fine features, definitely idol cut material and believe me, he's really funny and whacky like me and the rest of my friends (you know who I'm refering to rite...haha) and his gal, Brenda, SWEEET!!! but too bad she will be my future "Da Sao" ( Sister in law...haha) so gotta treat her with respect okay? Cheers Mac San...
And so it's like only last year that I actually met Mac, Momoko, Brenda and the rest of the Japanese friends...well, I'm actually studying Japanese Language at Tenrikyo Language Institute (Singapore) 'cos the people there are nice, and it's really affordable (less than SGD$250 for half a year) and my Sensei, Okada Sensei is really drop dead gorgeous...but too bad she's taken as well and her boyfriend is also damn good looking...haha and the lessons are leisurely spaced out so there's really a lot of time catered to get the foundation correct as it definitely get progressively tough as levels increase. By then it's purely up to one's will power and motivation to keep it going...but anyone interested to learn Japanese Language, please email me at shiroidevil@hotmail.com as I'll personally check out the next intake for you...and every year at late October till November, there's actually a cultural exchange programme where the japanese students studying English in Japan will come over here for 2 weeks and we get to mingle around with them...and the ratio is also around 4 to 6 guys and the rest 15 to 16 girls age ranging from 19 to 25...and I must confess, they are really an eye-opener for us locals...while there are always a few eye candy ones, the rest are just normal or simply plain looking (Duh?! ain't it obvious everywhere else?...). It's really an experience that I look forward to every year...
So much for straying from the topic again...now it says 6.22pm on my CPU's clock and it's like raining outside...the symphony of the falling rain drops really sounded pleasant and the air-con room I'm in...hmmm it like creating an artificial ambience of transience that's making my sub-consciousness calling out to me and fading my vision...in plain layman terms...I, your royal highness is sleepy...
okay enjoy yourselves the rest of this sweet melancholic evening now...tata and take care...
Fucking Noisy Drilling Ruin My Sleep
- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -
The deafening noise of drilling on concrete woke me up abruptly this morning...FUCKING NOISY early in the morning at 8.45pm...WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?! My flat is currently undergoing some renovations like getting a new coat of paint and some touch up on the cracks but that doesn't explain ALL THESE FUCKING NOISY DRILLING that's really getting on my nerves...FUCKING NOISY!!!! Somehow I hate living in flats...the deafening noise is really pissing me off...I think I gotta get outta this house soon before I am driven crazy by this FUCKING NOISE!!! What's up with the drilling? Even the ground is shaking with the drilling...and I have an urge to grab a M4 Carbine and shower those Full Metal Jacketed rounds into the culprits head...FUCKING IRRITATING!!!
Okay I'll try my very best to concentrate...IT'S FUCKING NOISY...yesterday saw the news that the Premier Taxi chairman Timothy Chua ("Thim Lo Ti" Chua meaning throw bread Chua...) won the appeal against the him by the taxi driver after being slapped by a mere $1000 fine across his face for punching the cabbie...Somehow I feel great injustice here...I mean it's so unfair...okay first let me explain my disgust for taxi drivers...many of them seems to actually PISS ME OFF as they are the main cause of ALL traffic accidents in Singapore and so FUCK YOU CABBIES...and you know who I am refering to YOU FUCKING OLD RAGDOLLS...there are just too many incidents to list so I'll have to skip that but then again I've to stress that THEY REALLY REALLY deserved a good punch IN THEIR FUCKING PUCKLED UP FACE...
So back to the case, yes I can sort of feel the anger that Mr Chua had back there at the scene of crime but to be only slapped with a fine so mild, and the FUCKING fact that he's a key public figure and also a FUCKING chairman of a major fleet of cabs really makes the established laws look bad...It's like sending the message to the rich and powerful "Look here, we can punch anyone and then pay them a small compensation" and that a mere $1000 fine is like maybe say $100 or even $10 to these rich figures...there is really great unjust in the laws and what "the long arms of the law will get you someday" shit seems not to work this time round? So I can conclude that the rich and powerful will always call the shots and bully the poor and weak? What is this FUCKING lame theory or saying...I would have slapped the damn daylights outta whoever made up this saying till he/she can't remember his/her daddy's name...If say like a small fry were to be in the same shoes as Mr Chua, I guess the outcome would not have been the same...he would probably be punished severly and so you can see why I have to really critise the law here...clearly exhibiting alliance with the rich and condemning the poor here...It really a FUGLY (FUCKING + UGLY) and sad outcome of the case...but what to do, I'm no lawyer and I clearly don't intend to be one...so I can only state my great displeasure of the case...and it's STILL FUCKING NOISY HERE...ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
okay go screw yourself now...
The deafening noise of drilling on concrete woke me up abruptly this morning...FUCKING NOISY early in the morning at 8.45pm...WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?! My flat is currently undergoing some renovations like getting a new coat of paint and some touch up on the cracks but that doesn't explain ALL THESE FUCKING NOISY DRILLING that's really getting on my nerves...FUCKING NOISY!!!! Somehow I hate living in flats...the deafening noise is really pissing me off...I think I gotta get outta this house soon before I am driven crazy by this FUCKING NOISE!!! What's up with the drilling? Even the ground is shaking with the drilling...and I have an urge to grab a M4 Carbine and shower those Full Metal Jacketed rounds into the culprits head...FUCKING IRRITATING!!!
Okay I'll try my very best to concentrate...IT'S FUCKING NOISY...yesterday saw the news that the Premier Taxi chairman Timothy Chua ("Thim Lo Ti" Chua meaning throw bread Chua...) won the appeal against the him by the taxi driver after being slapped by a mere $1000 fine across his face for punching the cabbie...Somehow I feel great injustice here...I mean it's so unfair...okay first let me explain my disgust for taxi drivers...many of them seems to actually PISS ME OFF as they are the main cause of ALL traffic accidents in Singapore and so FUCK YOU CABBIES...and you know who I am refering to YOU FUCKING OLD RAGDOLLS...there are just too many incidents to list so I'll have to skip that but then again I've to stress that THEY REALLY REALLY deserved a good punch IN THEIR FUCKING PUCKLED UP FACE...
So back to the case, yes I can sort of feel the anger that Mr Chua had back there at the scene of crime but to be only slapped with a fine so mild, and the FUCKING fact that he's a key public figure and also a FUCKING chairman of a major fleet of cabs really makes the established laws look bad...It's like sending the message to the rich and powerful "Look here, we can punch anyone and then pay them a small compensation" and that a mere $1000 fine is like maybe say $100 or even $10 to these rich figures...there is really great unjust in the laws and what "the long arms of the law will get you someday" shit seems not to work this time round? So I can conclude that the rich and powerful will always call the shots and bully the poor and weak? What is this FUCKING lame theory or saying...I would have slapped the damn daylights outta whoever made up this saying till he/she can't remember his/her daddy's name...If say like a small fry were to be in the same shoes as Mr Chua, I guess the outcome would not have been the same...he would probably be punished severly and so you can see why I have to really critise the law here...clearly exhibiting alliance with the rich and condemning the poor here...It really a FUGLY (FUCKING + UGLY) and sad outcome of the case...but what to do, I'm no lawyer and I clearly don't intend to be one...so I can only state my great displeasure of the case...and it's STILL FUCKING NOISY HERE...ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
okay go screw yourself now...
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
My All Time Favourite Idols - First 5
- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -
So here it is, My Idols, the 1st 5 of the long list of people who have influence my life in many ways, almost perfect creations by God, souls with attitude and charisma...and a little bio profile of each of them (not in any preference order...)
So here's Mr Brad Pitt who I feel is the most perfect Caucasian Male ever created...well defined jaw lines and really sharp features makes him a cut above any mere mortals...Look good with both long and short locks. Found out about him when I was like 14 thru a Brad Pitt obsessed classmate and later went on to check out his films like Legends of the Fall, Seven, Meet Joe Black, Interview With a Vampire, 7 years in Tibet, etc...
I am refering to the girl, yes, she's Carmen Lee who stars in this Legends of the Condor Heroes along side Louis "Playboy" Khoo...I am attracted to Carmen simply because of her eyes...To me, I feel she has the most perfect eyes and probably the most prettiest female of chinese descend of my time...and I do tend to use her as a benchmark to gauge the prettiness of chinese girls...haha so far in my life only one girl that I've know seems to have eyes as gorgeous as Carmen...really tough setting my limits so high...haha
Here's one really funky dude that I really idolized...Sam Lee was actually skateboarding at some alley in Hong Kong when he was actually spotted by a Hong Kong Director for his weird look. So he was casted with no experience and soon, this punk street skater was propelled to stardom...He looks funny to me but that's the whole main issue...he's cool man with that looks. Really should check this fella out...
Nicholas Tse...Yes I know, there are as many people that like him and as many people that dislike him...well for me, I guess I like his devil may care attitude which I sort of possessed even before Nick claimed stardom...I thought that I was the only few people around that have a bad attitude problem but this fella actually grew to stardom with the bad attitude...cool, loads of respect for him...
Here's Kimberly Hiott...accidentally stumbled upon her while searching through some filth on the net...haha still not really sure about her but I think she is some Czech porn girl or something like dat...sorry got to crop the pic as I am keeping my site for the general public ( she's got a really hot bod, check out her private area blonde hair...SWEET!!!!)...and please don't wank yourself while searching for her pics...haha in case your mum walk in to your room, don't say you learnt it from my site...( I seriously think I should put a clause to avoid me getting in to trouble...)...but seriously I like her angelic face and green pupils...
so that's it for now...more to come...
So here it is, My Idols, the 1st 5 of the long list of people who have influence my life in many ways, almost perfect creations by God, souls with attitude and charisma...and a little bio profile of each of them (not in any preference order...)
So here's Mr Brad Pitt who I feel is the most perfect Caucasian Male ever created...well defined jaw lines and really sharp features makes him a cut above any mere mortals...Look good with both long and short locks. Found out about him when I was like 14 thru a Brad Pitt obsessed classmate and later went on to check out his films like Legends of the Fall, Seven, Meet Joe Black, Interview With a Vampire, 7 years in Tibet, etc...I am refering to the girl, yes, she's Carmen Lee who stars in this Legends of the Condor Heroes along side Louis "Playboy" Khoo...I am attracted to Carmen simply because of her eyes...To me, I feel she has the most perfect eyes and probably the most prettiest female of chinese descend of my time...and I do tend to use her as a benchmark to gauge the prettiness of chinese girls...haha so far in my life only one girl that I've know seems to have eyes as gorgeous as Carmen...really tough setting my limits so high...hahaHere's one really funky dude that I really idolized...Sam Lee was actually skateboarding at some alley in Hong Kong when he was actually spotted by a Hong Kong Director for his weird look. So he was casted with no experience and soon, this punk street skater was propelled to stardom...He looks funny to me but that's the whole main issue...he's cool man with that looks. Really should check this fella out...Nicholas Tse...Yes I know, there are as many people that like him and as many people that dislike him...well for me, I guess I like his devil may care attitude which I sort of possessed even before Nick claimed stardom...I thought that I was the only few people around that have a bad attitude problem but this fella actually grew to stardom with the bad attitude...cool, loads of respect for him...Here's Kimberly Hiott...accidentally stumbled upon her while searching through some filth on the net...haha still not really sure about her but I think she is some Czech porn girl or something like dat...sorry got to crop the pic as I am keeping my site for the general public ( she's got a really hot bod, check out her private area blonde hair...SWEET!!!!)...and please don't wank yourself while searching for her pics...haha in case your mum walk in to your room, don't say you learnt it from my site...( I seriously think I should put a clause to avoid me getting in to trouble...)...but seriously I like her angelic face and green pupils...so that's it for now...more to come...
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Braiding Pictures
- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -
Like I said I'll try to get the pics up so here it goes,
"side view"
"back view"
Looks a bit messy though, maybe the lighting is no quite appropriate, too much contrast...but still I must say, Good Effort Evelyn...oh yeah if you are wondering if this was done by Violet, well nope...I actually went over to Evelyn's place to let her redo my briads 'cos they are coming loose after 2 wash and 1 night of sleep and that I actually wore a beannie to cover it when I sleep...So its like after Evelyn undo my briads, she actually learnt how it was done...well sort of and after a little tweak and fine tuning, she actually managed to redo the braids, but actually in 4 rows across each half of my scalp...where Violet did like 3 rows...
Boy the process was like draining Evelyn of her energy...and that I was so bored and that musty air in her room almost put me to sleep...and so it was like over in 3 hours...Thank You Evelyn....and after that, I went over to Lawrence's place to check out his battered state...and oh my, Chris ( aka the hot babe ) was actually there to look after him...haha good life huh bro? Passed him the Little Apple Dolls ( Umbrae and Citre ) that I collected from David earlier this afternoon after I washed the car and posted the pics...so was like chatted with him for a while and was feeling really symphatic for him...he was like on crutches and limping here and there and his room was like on the second floor...haha really man of steel.
Headed home after that and stop by Bukit Timah market to grab my take-away dinner and now just got the urge to key in an entry so hook up online and requested the pics from Evelyn thru MSN and here they are..."Ta - Da"...enjoy now
Like I said I'll try to get the pics up so here it goes,
"side view""back view"Looks a bit messy though, maybe the lighting is no quite appropriate, too much contrast...but still I must say, Good Effort Evelyn...oh yeah if you are wondering if this was done by Violet, well nope...I actually went over to Evelyn's place to let her redo my briads 'cos they are coming loose after 2 wash and 1 night of sleep and that I actually wore a beannie to cover it when I sleep...So its like after Evelyn undo my briads, she actually learnt how it was done...well sort of and after a little tweak and fine tuning, she actually managed to redo the braids, but actually in 4 rows across each half of my scalp...where Violet did like 3 rows...
Boy the process was like draining Evelyn of her energy...and that I was so bored and that musty air in her room almost put me to sleep...and so it was like over in 3 hours...Thank You Evelyn....and after that, I went over to Lawrence's place to check out his battered state...and oh my, Chris ( aka the hot babe ) was actually there to look after him...haha good life huh bro? Passed him the Little Apple Dolls ( Umbrae and Citre ) that I collected from David earlier this afternoon after I washed the car and posted the pics...so was like chatted with him for a while and was feeling really symphatic for him...he was like on crutches and limping here and there and his room was like on the second floor...haha really man of steel.
Headed home after that and stop by Bukit Timah market to grab my take-away dinner and now just got the urge to key in an entry so hook up online and requested the pics from Evelyn thru MSN and here they are..."Ta - Da"...enjoy now
My First Love - CK4
- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -
Okay seems like I have hooked up a picture of me so as to help a particular friend of mine have a "clearer" picture of me...haha you know who I am refering to...yes its you who stays at Bishan...hehe (*evil grin*)
Oh well, just came back from washing Daddy's car which I, your royal highness will be driving later as my other evil siblings just won't wash it and always complaining that it's dirty and filthy and stuff...I guess they are just plain lazy and always full of excuses...last nite was sweet as I had a little chat with Amber only to find out that she's really a jovial sweet pixie...
Somehow I feel like I just have the urge to post a couple of pictures of my first and only love, my dad's former CK4 and how I almost shed tears the day she left...well its a car I am refering to here, not just any ordinary car but one that I first drove legally and for 6 years and how I had shared so much sweet memories with it and the kinda passion with her would never be understood by anyone except me...It's really the first car that I really fell in love with and the bond between us is just beyond words...
I really can't write too much as I tends to get a little bit emotional whenever I think of her...here's a few pics while she's "alive"...
goodbye my dear friend, you will always be remembered...
Okay seems like I have hooked up a picture of me so as to help a particular friend of mine have a "clearer" picture of me...haha you know who I am refering to...yes its you who stays at Bishan...hehe (*evil grin*)
Oh well, just came back from washing Daddy's car which I, your royal highness will be driving later as my other evil siblings just won't wash it and always complaining that it's dirty and filthy and stuff...I guess they are just plain lazy and always full of excuses...last nite was sweet as I had a little chat with Amber only to find out that she's really a jovial sweet pixie...
Somehow I feel like I just have the urge to post a couple of pictures of my first and only love, my dad's former CK4 and how I almost shed tears the day she left...well its a car I am refering to here, not just any ordinary car but one that I first drove legally and for 6 years and how I had shared so much sweet memories with it and the kinda passion with her would never be understood by anyone except me...It's really the first car that I really fell in love with and the bond between us is just beyond words...
I really can't write too much as I tends to get a little bit emotional whenever I think of her...here's a few pics while she's "alive"...
goodbye my dear friend, you will always be remembered...
Monday, April 18, 2005
Character Profile - Amber Ying
- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -
Good morning, like I promise here's a little character profile of Amber Ying...hehe oh well she's someone I met through the net due to a common interest in Japanese Language...haven't really seen her but seems like yesterday nite after chatting with her on MSN for a while she called me so like change a different medium to communicate...Well sort of pictured her as a bubbly girl who runs most of her life based on her emotions...and I guess she's really the first friend who constantly change her pictures on friendster and MSN to an extent that I was almost fooled into believing that one can actually programmed a automated pic changing command on MSN messanger...haha sorry technology not so advanced yet... ( I mean for MSN)...so its like you can get to see different pictures of her every like 5 minutes?...Haha and she confessed that her pic changes with her mood...like so cool that she has the "xi", "nu", "ai", "le", (anxiety, angst, sorrow, happiness) pics of herself and changes them accordingly...
Somehow I feel like starting a mini friendster for my blog doing a little character profile of my friends in my very own words complete with pictures...hmmm...maybe if I managed to acquire a little more computer knowledge...oh yeah so sad for the pictures of my braided hair...I can't seem to get the pics up today cos the digital camera's not anywhere to be seen...can't find it...so again no promises...
So back to Amber...like actually chatted with her on MSN for sometime then found out from her friendster profile that she hates guys asking her for her no. but these desprate bastards seems to have low or simply zero intellect to not understand simple words like "Please don't ask me for my no. cos I hate it!" I guess they have zero comprehension of written english as well and really are persistant. ( Go screw yourself, you intellectual-disabled ragdolls!!!) Somehow if people put their persistant characteristics to making money or designing arts and other stuffs besides trying to get a girl's no., I guess they might be much better off say...5 years down the road...silly fools...
*argh* these desprates fools got me carried away...sorry...yeah so like back to Amber (again...), okay she's really an eye candy and I must confess, I really am drawn to her self-confidence...like how she takes so many pictures of herself and exhibits such confidence thru each photos...so even though I am pretty obsessed with myself, I don't possessed that amount of confidence...and so last nite was like the first time I actually chatted with her on the fone...somehow it seems like the silent clicking of the keyboard and the annoymous element that is present while chatting with Amber thru MSN was about to be shattered...well there's is this thing about the mysterious aura that shrouds the annoymous element thru internet chatting that one can only try to assemble the character of the other party thru silent texts that contain hidden truth and profound meaning in them...that is all about to change and so Amber asked for my no. and she called me...
Wasn't surprise and wasn't disappointed as I hardly had any expectations prior to the call so we chatted like normal as though we had know each other like for sometime ( which is true if you consider the fact that I actually chatted with her thru MSN sometime ago...)...yeah at least for me that's how I felt...and only to hang up till somewhere in the midst of the Japanese horror tales showing on channel 8...so that's a rather lengthy profile of Amber...
Good morning, like I promise here's a little character profile of Amber Ying...hehe oh well she's someone I met through the net due to a common interest in Japanese Language...haven't really seen her but seems like yesterday nite after chatting with her on MSN for a while she called me so like change a different medium to communicate...Well sort of pictured her as a bubbly girl who runs most of her life based on her emotions...and I guess she's really the first friend who constantly change her pictures on friendster and MSN to an extent that I was almost fooled into believing that one can actually programmed a automated pic changing command on MSN messanger...haha sorry technology not so advanced yet... ( I mean for MSN)...so its like you can get to see different pictures of her every like 5 minutes?...Haha and she confessed that her pic changes with her mood...like so cool that she has the "xi", "nu", "ai", "le", (anxiety, angst, sorrow, happiness) pics of herself and changes them accordingly...
Somehow I feel like starting a mini friendster for my blog doing a little character profile of my friends in my very own words complete with pictures...hmmm...maybe if I managed to acquire a little more computer knowledge...oh yeah so sad for the pictures of my braided hair...I can't seem to get the pics up today cos the digital camera's not anywhere to be seen...can't find it...so again no promises...
So back to Amber...like actually chatted with her on MSN for sometime then found out from her friendster profile that she hates guys asking her for her no. but these desprate bastards seems to have low or simply zero intellect to not understand simple words like "Please don't ask me for my no. cos I hate it!" I guess they have zero comprehension of written english as well and really are persistant. ( Go screw yourself, you intellectual-disabled ragdolls!!!) Somehow if people put their persistant characteristics to making money or designing arts and other stuffs besides trying to get a girl's no., I guess they might be much better off say...5 years down the road...silly fools...
*argh* these desprates fools got me carried away...sorry...yeah so like back to Amber (again...), okay she's really an eye candy and I must confess, I really am drawn to her self-confidence...like how she takes so many pictures of herself and exhibits such confidence thru each photos...so even though I am pretty obsessed with myself, I don't possessed that amount of confidence...and so last nite was like the first time I actually chatted with her on the fone...somehow it seems like the silent clicking of the keyboard and the annoymous element that is present while chatting with Amber thru MSN was about to be shattered...well there's is this thing about the mysterious aura that shrouds the annoymous element thru internet chatting that one can only try to assemble the character of the other party thru silent texts that contain hidden truth and profound meaning in them...that is all about to change and so Amber asked for my no. and she called me...
Wasn't surprise and wasn't disappointed as I hardly had any expectations prior to the call so we chatted like normal as though we had know each other like for sometime ( which is true if you consider the fact that I actually chatted with her thru MSN sometime ago...)...yeah at least for me that's how I felt...and only to hang up till somewhere in the midst of the Japanese horror tales showing on channel 8...so that's a rather lengthy profile of Amber...
Sunday, April 17, 2005
Thank You Violet
- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -
Hello Violet...hope you won't be surprised when you read this posting...haha no choice, I give credit to who's due...hehe so okay to those who don't noe violet, she's this really sweet looking girl I got to noe during a lecture sometime like last month or last week, well I can't really remember but I do believe that those people that you are destiny to meet in your life out of that 4 million plus in Singapore, You will definitely meet them and what happens after that is purely up to destiny of the individual or God if you believe in one...Say if you approach a stranger to make friends and got rejected or something like that, then maybe your destiny with the stranger never meant to cross but if that stranger becomes your friend, well it's all predefined in destiny if you believe at least for me but trust me, if you never make the first move, chances of it happening is as close to ZERO! Yeah but its the sad cold truth ( and I mean all you shy guys out there !!! Wimps! ) and for goodness sake, STOP dreaming for a miracle or something to happen if YOU, yes you, yourself don't make the first move...it all makes sense that only those who put in effort will be rewarded...so you retards out there, beg, borrow or steal some guts and make some friends...haha
okay back to Violet, yeah got to know her and then found out that she can actually BRAID hair and thank goodness I can actually save like the minimum a couple of hundred dollars to actually do it a a salon...( anyone else reading my blog, if YOU CAN TIE BRAID, PLEASE EMAIL ME @ shiroidevil@hotmail.com , thank you in advance!!! ) And so the story goes, yes today, I actually travelled all the way to the "other" side of Singapore by train, which I haven't done in like the last 4 years...haha whole new experience but luckily no one tried to kill himself / herself while your royal highness, me was travelling...
So after a little warm up here and there and a little tweaking here and there, alas! Violet was actually braiding my hair and like the next few hours whizz by, I had now like 6 rows of braid on half my head...somehow I can't really see how it actually looks like ( and I doubt anyone can without the help of a mirror, well if you can please join Guiness Records, thks) but I can "feel" it look at least not bad and, ....nice! so again thank you Violet...hehe and after that went for a bit of a late lunch + early dinner and studied a bit after that before making my way home...journey was long so took a little nap but was awoken by a SMS from my dear bro Lawrence, only to find out that this prostatic wannabe actually had a bike accident yesterday nite and that I was like with him the whole afternoon ( Fook you bro, to think that you can only stop when all your limbs are replace by prostatic ones!!!) ...thank God you are okay and at least confine to a chair and unable to walk should keep you outta action for sometime now...good!
okay so much for Lawrence...and thank you Violet...Patience my dear readers, I will hook up some pictures soon...so while keying this entry now, "Bing Bong!" MSN shows Amber online...tell you more about Amber another time...tata for now and enjoy the rest of your Sunday...and do check out channel 8 at 11pm later, got this 100 horror tales of Japan...really good ancient ghost fables from Japan...
Hello Violet...hope you won't be surprised when you read this posting...haha no choice, I give credit to who's due...hehe so okay to those who don't noe violet, she's this really sweet looking girl I got to noe during a lecture sometime like last month or last week, well I can't really remember but I do believe that those people that you are destiny to meet in your life out of that 4 million plus in Singapore, You will definitely meet them and what happens after that is purely up to destiny of the individual or God if you believe in one...Say if you approach a stranger to make friends and got rejected or something like that, then maybe your destiny with the stranger never meant to cross but if that stranger becomes your friend, well it's all predefined in destiny if you believe at least for me but trust me, if you never make the first move, chances of it happening is as close to ZERO! Yeah but its the sad cold truth ( and I mean all you shy guys out there !!! Wimps! ) and for goodness sake, STOP dreaming for a miracle or something to happen if YOU, yes you, yourself don't make the first move...it all makes sense that only those who put in effort will be rewarded...so you retards out there, beg, borrow or steal some guts and make some friends...haha
okay back to Violet, yeah got to know her and then found out that she can actually BRAID hair and thank goodness I can actually save like the minimum a couple of hundred dollars to actually do it a a salon...( anyone else reading my blog, if YOU CAN TIE BRAID, PLEASE EMAIL ME @ shiroidevil@hotmail.com , thank you in advance!!! ) And so the story goes, yes today, I actually travelled all the way to the "other" side of Singapore by train, which I haven't done in like the last 4 years...haha whole new experience but luckily no one tried to kill himself / herself while your royal highness, me was travelling...
So after a little warm up here and there and a little tweaking here and there, alas! Violet was actually braiding my hair and like the next few hours whizz by, I had now like 6 rows of braid on half my head...somehow I can't really see how it actually looks like ( and I doubt anyone can without the help of a mirror, well if you can please join Guiness Records, thks) but I can "feel" it look at least not bad and, ....nice! so again thank you Violet...hehe and after that went for a bit of a late lunch + early dinner and studied a bit after that before making my way home...journey was long so took a little nap but was awoken by a SMS from my dear bro Lawrence, only to find out that this prostatic wannabe actually had a bike accident yesterday nite and that I was like with him the whole afternoon ( Fook you bro, to think that you can only stop when all your limbs are replace by prostatic ones!!!) ...thank God you are okay and at least confine to a chair and unable to walk should keep you outta action for sometime now...good!
okay so much for Lawrence...and thank you Violet...Patience my dear readers, I will hook up some pictures soon...so while keying this entry now, "Bing Bong!" MSN shows Amber online...tell you more about Amber another time...tata for now and enjoy the rest of your Sunday...and do check out channel 8 at 11pm later, got this 100 horror tales of Japan...really good ancient ghost fables from Japan...
Friday, April 15, 2005
Love At First Sight - Sine
- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -
How should I put it...Okay Sine is my latest fad...really...well she seems to be looking at you from the bottom left of this page as you are reading...don't worry she's pretty harmless with that pin ridden apple...Please go check out www.littleappledolls.com for more information on Sine and her friends. The story sort of started yesterday before I was going for my Japanese class which usually starts around 18.30 hours.
Here it is...I actaully went down to China Sq to check out the former Clark Quay toy shops before going for my Japanese class and while browsing thru the last shop, there was actually 2 rows of 3 big white boxes calling out to me as I stood there looking at other toys...Really it was just there right in front of my face calling out to me...then I sort of realise that there is this gothic looking doll staring at me through the little plastic hole in the box...yes yes it's freaky and I must confess, dolls really freak me out especially those big porcelain dolls with glass eyes...it's really freaky as I always marvel at the element called eyes which I think are the window to our souls and so these dolls...their eyes have so much to tell so each and everyone of them seems like calling out to me to attract my attention and trying so hard to tell me their stories...sad but freaky...well that's me as I really am facinated by eyes...dolls, animals, people...
Okay sorry for straying the topic again but just have the urge to share a little more about the dolls thingy...so I felt that there is this particular set of dark eyes staring at me...oh well, I looked down and stretched out my arms to carry the box up and the moment I open the front flap, "Viola"! The look in the eyes, the pure white cloth that drape her body...I was just lost for words as I stood there with words running in my mind..."I've got to buy this doll at whatever cost!!!" Somehow the ghastly look did not freak me out but rather it protrayed a innocent looking child with a really sad past to tell and it was just there at that instance that I felt that I really wanted to know what happen or who the master craftman who could depic such sorrow through a face with hollowed eyes...I just badly wanted to know...It was really love at first sight...till now I am still trying to get over it...gee...and the next thing is to call my friend, Darien who sell toys...and to my surprise he was actually the 1st one to actually bring these dolls in...and to him it was like "hey man, these have been like in for almost 2 months ago? What's with the slow info?" Haha I guess I can be slow at times but thank God I wasn't too slow to actually missed it...so after checkin with him, I decided to get it from him instead ( friend mah so must support hor! ) but so Darien claims that everyone wants the white doll which is actually part of a set of 3 and that he can only break up the set just to let me have the white one...(now that's why I say must support him! cheers Darien)...and slowly I learnt that the white doll has a really sweet name, Sine was her name...and her other 2 friends are Umbrae (dressed in red drapes) and Circe (dressed in gothic black) and a juicy red apple named "Little Apple Red" and so the story goes...
Called up Evelyn to check the webbie for more information on these dolls and to my surprise, she too actually fell for Sine after experiencing her twisted charm. A second check with Darien revealed that he cannot break anymore sets so I had to go back to the shop which I found Sine earlier to buy it for her...
There you go...how I first met Sine, the ultimate doll that captured my heart there at that very instance...and Series 2 of these sweet little apple dolls are on the way...
How should I put it...Okay Sine is my latest fad...really...well she seems to be looking at you from the bottom left of this page as you are reading...don't worry she's pretty harmless with that pin ridden apple...Please go check out www.littleappledolls.com for more information on Sine and her friends. The story sort of started yesterday before I was going for my Japanese class which usually starts around 18.30 hours.
Here it is...I actaully went down to China Sq to check out the former Clark Quay toy shops before going for my Japanese class and while browsing thru the last shop, there was actually 2 rows of 3 big white boxes calling out to me as I stood there looking at other toys...Really it was just there right in front of my face calling out to me...then I sort of realise that there is this gothic looking doll staring at me through the little plastic hole in the box...yes yes it's freaky and I must confess, dolls really freak me out especially those big porcelain dolls with glass eyes...it's really freaky as I always marvel at the element called eyes which I think are the window to our souls and so these dolls...their eyes have so much to tell so each and everyone of them seems like calling out to me to attract my attention and trying so hard to tell me their stories...sad but freaky...well that's me as I really am facinated by eyes...dolls, animals, people...
Okay sorry for straying the topic again but just have the urge to share a little more about the dolls thingy...so I felt that there is this particular set of dark eyes staring at me...oh well, I looked down and stretched out my arms to carry the box up and the moment I open the front flap, "Viola"! The look in the eyes, the pure white cloth that drape her body...I was just lost for words as I stood there with words running in my mind..."I've got to buy this doll at whatever cost!!!" Somehow the ghastly look did not freak me out but rather it protrayed a innocent looking child with a really sad past to tell and it was just there at that instance that I felt that I really wanted to know what happen or who the master craftman who could depic such sorrow through a face with hollowed eyes...I just badly wanted to know...It was really love at first sight...till now I am still trying to get over it...gee...and the next thing is to call my friend, Darien who sell toys...and to my surprise he was actually the 1st one to actually bring these dolls in...and to him it was like "hey man, these have been like in for almost 2 months ago? What's with the slow info?" Haha I guess I can be slow at times but thank God I wasn't too slow to actually missed it...so after checkin with him, I decided to get it from him instead ( friend mah so must support hor! ) but so Darien claims that everyone wants the white doll which is actually part of a set of 3 and that he can only break up the set just to let me have the white one...(now that's why I say must support him! cheers Darien)...and slowly I learnt that the white doll has a really sweet name, Sine was her name...and her other 2 friends are Umbrae (dressed in red drapes) and Circe (dressed in gothic black) and a juicy red apple named "Little Apple Red" and so the story goes...
Called up Evelyn to check the webbie for more information on these dolls and to my surprise, she too actually fell for Sine after experiencing her twisted charm. A second check with Darien revealed that he cannot break anymore sets so I had to go back to the shop which I found Sine earlier to buy it for her...
There you go...how I first met Sine, the ultimate doll that captured my heart there at that very instance...and Series 2 of these sweet little apple dolls are on the way...
Thursday, April 14, 2005
Template FIxed
- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -
Was suffering from some technical problems with my blog as the background picture just doesn't show on the actual blog site but it actually appears on the preview site and no matter how I save or republish, the damn thing just doesn't show (fucking lousy shit...) and I actually had to email the so called blogger help team to solve the problem and after waiting 4 a long time (Yes a very long time like a month!!!) and still there is no reply...(WTF?!?!?!) So I decided to send them another one with my fustrations...haha to to my surprise it was like an almost instant reply...within the day...and so it seems like those guys don't really know how to solve the problem but suggested a couple of ideas whic I have already decided to try on my last resort and so alas...its here...all done after tweaking a bit here and a bit there...
Okay seems like those efforts I actually put into studying for my exams is futile after all. Somehow I feel like telling someone yeah just someone "You are nothing more than a mere dispensible pawn to me!" but can't seem to find the appropriate time and situation to use that phrase...well just receive a msg from Momoko-San...here check it out
Wednesday, April 13, 2005 6:40:38 PM
"hi Danial ™ i m gona stay @ Shucchojyo while i m in Singapore. nd i wil go 2
English school ™ i wanna study English ! do u know what is da best school of
English ? by da way me also, i m realy lookin 4ward 2 c u again. i wanna go 2
club ( i think its called disc in Singapore.) i wanna dance !! do u remember da
CD u recomended 2 me. i 4got da name cmayb Zork ? i wanna go there !! could u
bring me there someday. i l go 2 Singapore on da Augurt. w8 me (*^_^*)"
Oh god it's like soon, yes very soon I can fufil my destiny...haha A japanese girl...well it has always been my dream...now it's so close to becoming a reality...my gosh I can't believe it...I am definitely not dreaming this, for now let me just concentrate on my exams...see you around suckers...
Was suffering from some technical problems with my blog as the background picture just doesn't show on the actual blog site but it actually appears on the preview site and no matter how I save or republish, the damn thing just doesn't show (fucking lousy shit...) and I actually had to email the so called blogger help team to solve the problem and after waiting 4 a long time (Yes a very long time like a month!!!) and still there is no reply...(WTF?!?!?!) So I decided to send them another one with my fustrations...haha to to my surprise it was like an almost instant reply...within the day...and so it seems like those guys don't really know how to solve the problem but suggested a couple of ideas whic I have already decided to try on my last resort and so alas...its here...all done after tweaking a bit here and a bit there...
Okay seems like those efforts I actually put into studying for my exams is futile after all. Somehow I feel like telling someone yeah just someone "You are nothing more than a mere dispensible pawn to me!" but can't seem to find the appropriate time and situation to use that phrase...well just receive a msg from Momoko-San...here check it out
Wednesday, April 13, 2005 6:40:38 PM
"hi Danial ™ i m gona stay @ Shucchojyo while i m in Singapore. nd i wil go 2
English school ™ i wanna study English ! do u know what is da best school of
English ? by da way me also, i m realy lookin 4ward 2 c u again. i wanna go 2
club ( i think its called disc in Singapore.) i wanna dance !! do u remember da
CD u recomended 2 me. i 4got da name cmayb Zork ? i wanna go there !! could u
bring me there someday. i l go 2 Singapore on da Augurt. w8 me (*^_^*)"
Oh god it's like soon, yes very soon I can fufil my destiny...haha A japanese girl...well it has always been my dream...now it's so close to becoming a reality...my gosh I can't believe it...I am definitely not dreaming this, for now let me just concentrate on my exams...see you around suckers...
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Repercussion of History
- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -
No, I am not against anyone or any affecting individuals nor am I taking a stand for either parties and I AM NOT INTERESTED IN POLITICS!!! This is MY BLOG and anyone else that doesn't like what is posted here and kiss their sorry asses goodbye. In layman terms, FUCK OFF!
Okay now that I've made myself clear this is what I've gotta say...yeah as the title suggests, that Japan have outraged many aisan neighbours with the authorized use of the new textbooks that sort of whitewashed its war atrocities and that China and Korea are taking that very negatively and to make things a little worse, Japan in vying for a seat in the UN cabinet for regional security or something like that...Yes it's true that history are lessons that are meant to be learnt and passed down generations and that only the truth in history and not the distorted history...although I like many things associated with the Japanese, I still think that the approval of these distorted textbooks are really a wrong move for Japan after building up the trust and political ties with its neighbours after the war. And it seems like all these years China's still holding back against the Japanese that is much revealed in seperate incidents like an outrage of clothes that one particular celebrity wore...After so much efforts to strengthen ties, a stupid decision by Japan really ruin all those efforts...really wasted but its only natural as both Japan and China are very nationalist nations with only a single spark to trigger a massive castastrophe and the neighbouring nations to absorb the aftermath...
But the recent news that I see everyday on the news really disgust me as the citizens of China choose to adopt a rather barbaric and uncivilised approached to pressure the Japanese...and that the Chinese government are just giving lame excuses that we should understand the feelings of these chinese protestors...and declining an apology as suggested by the Japanese goverment...I mean come on, the goverment just feels regret over these incidents and not do anything to control or stop it...you mean a goverment have no control its people?! What the hell, I can only conclude that the goverment is lousy...or issit that the goverment is waiting for the incident to escalate to something that results in loss of inoccent lives and possibility of an Asian war? I really don't understand what the Chinese goverment is thinking and I SERIOUSLY DON'T GIVE A SHIT! I just hope that the Chinese being properly educated should let the goverment handle this political issue or if they must express their views, do it in a orderly or civilised manner...The Chinese are pointing their fingers at the Japanese atrocities but look. they are behaving in exactly the same manner...taking things into their own hands...haha what an irony here...the bottomline here is that yes, Japan and created much shit but let's just solve this in a civilised manner...Though the tension in this part of Asia is particularly strong, with China pissed off with Taiwan and Japan, Japan pissing off Korea and China...Oh God, the last thing I would ever wanna see is war among the Asians countries...Yes I am a pure bred Chinese with a huge obsession for Japanese stuffs (girls, cars, anime, technology, game, food, history, culture) but then again I'm equally as fascinated by the rich Chinese history and I really hope the rising dragon, China and the Amazing Rising Sun, Japan can resolved this thorny issue in a CIVILISED manner as I really don't wish to see my 2 idol nations hurting each other asses...
And that the Taiwan conflict, The Japanese - Korean island conflict come to a peaceful conclusion...and no I'm not giving a super model answer at some Miss Universe contest...I'M JUST STATING MY PLAIN DISPLEASURE HERE!!! Well if you ask me I think the affecting parties should just challenge each other to a game of STREET FIGHTER OR KING OF FIGHTERS...haha how cool would it be to see key people of the government sitting down at a game machine and bash it out...hahahahaha...for now let's just await to see how Anakin becomes Mr Vadar...cheers
No, I am not against anyone or any affecting individuals nor am I taking a stand for either parties and I AM NOT INTERESTED IN POLITICS!!! This is MY BLOG and anyone else that doesn't like what is posted here and kiss their sorry asses goodbye. In layman terms, FUCK OFF!
Okay now that I've made myself clear this is what I've gotta say...yeah as the title suggests, that Japan have outraged many aisan neighbours with the authorized use of the new textbooks that sort of whitewashed its war atrocities and that China and Korea are taking that very negatively and to make things a little worse, Japan in vying for a seat in the UN cabinet for regional security or something like that...Yes it's true that history are lessons that are meant to be learnt and passed down generations and that only the truth in history and not the distorted history...although I like many things associated with the Japanese, I still think that the approval of these distorted textbooks are really a wrong move for Japan after building up the trust and political ties with its neighbours after the war. And it seems like all these years China's still holding back against the Japanese that is much revealed in seperate incidents like an outrage of clothes that one particular celebrity wore...After so much efforts to strengthen ties, a stupid decision by Japan really ruin all those efforts...really wasted but its only natural as both Japan and China are very nationalist nations with only a single spark to trigger a massive castastrophe and the neighbouring nations to absorb the aftermath...
But the recent news that I see everyday on the news really disgust me as the citizens of China choose to adopt a rather barbaric and uncivilised approached to pressure the Japanese...and that the Chinese government are just giving lame excuses that we should understand the feelings of these chinese protestors...and declining an apology as suggested by the Japanese goverment...I mean come on, the goverment just feels regret over these incidents and not do anything to control or stop it...you mean a goverment have no control its people?! What the hell, I can only conclude that the goverment is lousy...or issit that the goverment is waiting for the incident to escalate to something that results in loss of inoccent lives and possibility of an Asian war? I really don't understand what the Chinese goverment is thinking and I SERIOUSLY DON'T GIVE A SHIT! I just hope that the Chinese being properly educated should let the goverment handle this political issue or if they must express their views, do it in a orderly or civilised manner...The Chinese are pointing their fingers at the Japanese atrocities but look. they are behaving in exactly the same manner...taking things into their own hands...haha what an irony here...the bottomline here is that yes, Japan and created much shit but let's just solve this in a civilised manner...Though the tension in this part of Asia is particularly strong, with China pissed off with Taiwan and Japan, Japan pissing off Korea and China...Oh God, the last thing I would ever wanna see is war among the Asians countries...Yes I am a pure bred Chinese with a huge obsession for Japanese stuffs (girls, cars, anime, technology, game, food, history, culture) but then again I'm equally as fascinated by the rich Chinese history and I really hope the rising dragon, China and the Amazing Rising Sun, Japan can resolved this thorny issue in a CIVILISED manner as I really don't wish to see my 2 idol nations hurting each other asses...
And that the Taiwan conflict, The Japanese - Korean island conflict come to a peaceful conclusion...and no I'm not giving a super model answer at some Miss Universe contest...I'M JUST STATING MY PLAIN DISPLEASURE HERE!!! Well if you ask me I think the affecting parties should just challenge each other to a game of STREET FIGHTER OR KING OF FIGHTERS...haha how cool would it be to see key people of the government sitting down at a game machine and bash it out...hahahahaha...for now let's just await to see how Anakin becomes Mr Vadar...cheers
Monday, April 11, 2005
The Man who Crafted A Nation...
- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -
Well as far as the man in question is concerned, I am quite sure I really wanted to put this entry in here a long time ago but seems like it really took me a bit too long...(duh?! what's with me man...?!?!?!) OK...after reading Sunday's papers, 10/04/2005, there was this particular part (main section page 13) that states the the list of 100 most influential man who will be included in the Time magazine. And not too long ago, the truth is that I really did have the thought that HE, the man himself should be included in the list, (I swear I really did have that thought!) and so true it became a fact. There is just this particular aura that shrouds this great man and words like admiration and inspiration are just words far too shallow to describe him. Through the years, time seem to have taken a toll on him but seems like he is still going strong and still exhibiting that vigor and knowledge in his eyes. At many times, I am really proud to be able to reside in this very land that this great man crafted. Being able to grow with the nation, experiencing the changes from the 80s to the 90s to present, to walk down the streets and to be able to know this great man and to actually see his creations and live through them...I must confess it's really amazing. Sort of like a fantasy novel like LOTR and other japanese anime where a king takes over a new continent and crafted it through the years to become a prosperous and influential one only to be awed by many neighbours. The truth that to be able to be listed in the Time Magazine as one of the 100 most influential man is no easy feat when you compare the facts that there are like 6.42 billion people on earth as at 4/11/05 at 1:35:17 GMT...it's definitely incredible. And to be listed under the category of world's top scientist and thinkers...wow to rank among Galileo, Da Vinci, Albert Einstein, now you know what I'm saying. A conversation the other day with a friend that I've known for more then 10 years revealed that he too will not hesitate to name this great man as "The Most Respected Man" given the chance that someone would actually asked him this question. Well i guess it's true, as for me there is really no other soul that I can think of to actually toppled his position as "The Most Respected Man", at least for me along with the likes of Junichiro Koizumi- San, the only Prime Minister that spot such long hair and to be able to age with grace and increasing charisma. Haha not that my obsession with anything japanese is so great but boy, these great man are really a icon of my time. Okay I'll try not to stray the topic that is written above...so my guess is that have you actually figured out who this man in question is? I believe you do, rite? But if you actually don't...Minister Mentor Lee Kuan Yew, yes no doubt about it, he IS the man that I would like to express many thanks and admiration for. There are just so many great contributions to list from this man and to see him progress through the years and not to mention from senior minister to the current minister mentor...seems like what the papers had said, this man is definitely not giving up even though his son has already taken over the responsibility to mould the future of the nation...Well I don't really quite agree with the papers even though I do sincerely think that this great man should be deserved a break and take the back seat and just enjoy the show. His strength and vigor is still going strong and so he should he going on strong...that's how I feel I would have done. A little extract from the papers that I couldn't agree more...
Writing for Time, author Ian Buruma says that although he "can still fine-tune Singapore's efficiency and development, when all the tinkering is done, one feels that Lee would have liked to have a larger, grander stage on which to project his vision of perfection". He adds: " Since Singapore is too small to shape the future of the world, Lee's mark on history would have to be as a great thinker, a kind of Asian philosopher king."
And no I will not be into politics and stuffs as there are just not my cup of tea...and still my obsession for japanese grows each day...
Well as far as the man in question is concerned, I am quite sure I really wanted to put this entry in here a long time ago but seems like it really took me a bit too long...(duh?! what's with me man...?!?!?!) OK...after reading Sunday's papers, 10/04/2005, there was this particular part (main section page 13) that states the the list of 100 most influential man who will be included in the Time magazine. And not too long ago, the truth is that I really did have the thought that HE, the man himself should be included in the list, (I swear I really did have that thought!) and so true it became a fact. There is just this particular aura that shrouds this great man and words like admiration and inspiration are just words far too shallow to describe him. Through the years, time seem to have taken a toll on him but seems like he is still going strong and still exhibiting that vigor and knowledge in his eyes. At many times, I am really proud to be able to reside in this very land that this great man crafted. Being able to grow with the nation, experiencing the changes from the 80s to the 90s to present, to walk down the streets and to be able to know this great man and to actually see his creations and live through them...I must confess it's really amazing. Sort of like a fantasy novel like LOTR and other japanese anime where a king takes over a new continent and crafted it through the years to become a prosperous and influential one only to be awed by many neighbours. The truth that to be able to be listed in the Time Magazine as one of the 100 most influential man is no easy feat when you compare the facts that there are like 6.42 billion people on earth as at 4/11/05 at 1:35:17 GMT...it's definitely incredible. And to be listed under the category of world's top scientist and thinkers...wow to rank among Galileo, Da Vinci, Albert Einstein, now you know what I'm saying. A conversation the other day with a friend that I've known for more then 10 years revealed that he too will not hesitate to name this great man as "The Most Respected Man" given the chance that someone would actually asked him this question. Well i guess it's true, as for me there is really no other soul that I can think of to actually toppled his position as "The Most Respected Man", at least for me along with the likes of Junichiro Koizumi- San, the only Prime Minister that spot such long hair and to be able to age with grace and increasing charisma. Haha not that my obsession with anything japanese is so great but boy, these great man are really a icon of my time. Okay I'll try not to stray the topic that is written above...so my guess is that have you actually figured out who this man in question is? I believe you do, rite? But if you actually don't...Minister Mentor Lee Kuan Yew, yes no doubt about it, he IS the man that I would like to express many thanks and admiration for. There are just so many great contributions to list from this man and to see him progress through the years and not to mention from senior minister to the current minister mentor...seems like what the papers had said, this man is definitely not giving up even though his son has already taken over the responsibility to mould the future of the nation...Well I don't really quite agree with the papers even though I do sincerely think that this great man should be deserved a break and take the back seat and just enjoy the show. His strength and vigor is still going strong and so he should he going on strong...that's how I feel I would have done. A little extract from the papers that I couldn't agree more...
Writing for Time, author Ian Buruma says that although he "can still fine-tune Singapore's efficiency and development, when all the tinkering is done, one feels that Lee would have liked to have a larger, grander stage on which to project his vision of perfection". He adds: " Since Singapore is too small to shape the future of the world, Lee's mark on history would have to be as a great thinker, a kind of Asian philosopher king."
And no I will not be into politics and stuffs as there are just not my cup of tea...and still my obsession for japanese grows each day...
Saturday, April 09, 2005
Alas! Completion of the Kabuto...philosophy of insanity
- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -
Finally after destroying 2 prototype of the 1/6 scale kabuto, I've finally managed to complete a kabuto from scratch...and my goodness it's really nice and I'm pretty impressed by the finished prototype...not that I'm bragging of that I may be exhibiting a bit of proudness but still the enormous amount of satisfaction that I got from nothing to something I mean to actually build something that deemed impossible at first. It the kinda like attaining nirvana or some kind of achievment that I never thought possible by my own limited knowledge and skills. Well like the saying goes, if you put your heart to it, nothing is impossible. Went to town to show a couple of my friends and most were pretty impressed by the intricate details and the amount of effort put in to complete something of this calibre but seriously all these praises did not seemed to make me feel proud or happy or at the very least, satisfactory. Instead I'm sort of feeling quite vexed and presurrised but the fact that there are still so many flaws in the finished model and that I could have definitely done better. Kinda like disappointed that why did I stopped at where I thought was the complete model but the fact that I could have actually be more precise and not cut corners and produced a better piece. The relentless pursuit of perfection stills don on me each time I do something with passion and with much inspiration. But now I just can't helped it but feel disappointed and disgusted at myself of producing works that is not reaching my expectations. Maybe its just that my friends aren't capable of producing such things or its just that there are some unforseen factors restraining them from realising their full potential.
Somehow to me the kinda satisfaction upon seeing the complete model got me carried away and resulting me from realising my full potential. I pondered at why is my concentration lost there? What got me carried away? Still i search for my answers desprately. Praises from people around me doesn't seem to encourage me but to remind me that there is no limit to my potential till I set one for myself. Self-denial and illusion are messing my sanity. Maybe I was born a perfectionist but still that is not a valid excuse to limit my potential or to be satisfied with what's before my eyes. Vision to most humans are deceptional and works almost 70% of our brain and often misleading us to believe lies and deception and resulting in dire consequences. And the cold fact that we have to clean up the mess and live with it hoping that it will all be washed away with the hands of time. Wrong! That will never happen...and that reality is cruel so please remember that.
Thought sometimes I do stray away from the main topics but please bear with it as our minds are formidable weapons so when the stream of thoughts just happen to flow through my brain nerves, I seek you forgiveness to putting those profound sanity of mine here. At times, I feel that everyone around me including myself is wearing a mask. Still today I don't really understand why this is so...well the possible reasons that seem to have occured to me are...we are vulnerable by nature and animal instincts allow us to evolved and survive till today is that to trust no one but yourself...evil will always triumph over good so it is better to play safe to stand a better chance of survival...someones gotta start removing their masks before we follow suit but too bad reality killed to many of them...maybe our brain is so complex that till today no science or technology can predict our thoughts accurately and constantly we harbour thoughts that seems impossible for anyone but ourselves to fathom. Sub-consiously, we are always at a dilemma over choices we have to make. Pathetic is the word that I can think of to correctly sympathize this weird phenomenon.
Still each day I am constant trying to improve myself and see the full potential to the works i produced with much inspiration and passion but sad to say I tend to based myself to only quality works fuelled by passion and at many times, this has led to my downfall in many things I do. I am constantly plagued by procrastination and that is a hard cold reality that I have to face and it really sucks if you know what i mean but please don't sympathize me as I do believe that you and everyone else on the surface of this dying planet is experiencing the same thing. Well it really up to an individual to change his or her destiny but overcoming this problem at hand.
Blah Blah Blah so much philosophy of insanity tonite...what's gotten over me man? Ha boy I am still figuring out how the hell am I still penning all these things here? Now I am finding these profound thoughts confusing...oh well what the hell I am gonna watch Initial D stage 4 that I took from my god-bro a couple of hours ago...goodnite and sweet dreams now...
Finally after destroying 2 prototype of the 1/6 scale kabuto, I've finally managed to complete a kabuto from scratch...and my goodness it's really nice and I'm pretty impressed by the finished prototype...not that I'm bragging of that I may be exhibiting a bit of proudness but still the enormous amount of satisfaction that I got from nothing to something I mean to actually build something that deemed impossible at first. It the kinda like attaining nirvana or some kind of achievment that I never thought possible by my own limited knowledge and skills. Well like the saying goes, if you put your heart to it, nothing is impossible. Went to town to show a couple of my friends and most were pretty impressed by the intricate details and the amount of effort put in to complete something of this calibre but seriously all these praises did not seemed to make me feel proud or happy or at the very least, satisfactory. Instead I'm sort of feeling quite vexed and presurrised but the fact that there are still so many flaws in the finished model and that I could have definitely done better. Kinda like disappointed that why did I stopped at where I thought was the complete model but the fact that I could have actually be more precise and not cut corners and produced a better piece. The relentless pursuit of perfection stills don on me each time I do something with passion and with much inspiration. But now I just can't helped it but feel disappointed and disgusted at myself of producing works that is not reaching my expectations. Maybe its just that my friends aren't capable of producing such things or its just that there are some unforseen factors restraining them from realising their full potential.
Somehow to me the kinda satisfaction upon seeing the complete model got me carried away and resulting me from realising my full potential. I pondered at why is my concentration lost there? What got me carried away? Still i search for my answers desprately. Praises from people around me doesn't seem to encourage me but to remind me that there is no limit to my potential till I set one for myself. Self-denial and illusion are messing my sanity. Maybe I was born a perfectionist but still that is not a valid excuse to limit my potential or to be satisfied with what's before my eyes. Vision to most humans are deceptional and works almost 70% of our brain and often misleading us to believe lies and deception and resulting in dire consequences. And the cold fact that we have to clean up the mess and live with it hoping that it will all be washed away with the hands of time. Wrong! That will never happen...and that reality is cruel so please remember that.
Thought sometimes I do stray away from the main topics but please bear with it as our minds are formidable weapons so when the stream of thoughts just happen to flow through my brain nerves, I seek you forgiveness to putting those profound sanity of mine here. At times, I feel that everyone around me including myself is wearing a mask. Still today I don't really understand why this is so...well the possible reasons that seem to have occured to me are...we are vulnerable by nature and animal instincts allow us to evolved and survive till today is that to trust no one but yourself...evil will always triumph over good so it is better to play safe to stand a better chance of survival...someones gotta start removing their masks before we follow suit but too bad reality killed to many of them...maybe our brain is so complex that till today no science or technology can predict our thoughts accurately and constantly we harbour thoughts that seems impossible for anyone but ourselves to fathom. Sub-consiously, we are always at a dilemma over choices we have to make. Pathetic is the word that I can think of to correctly sympathize this weird phenomenon.
Still each day I am constant trying to improve myself and see the full potential to the works i produced with much inspiration and passion but sad to say I tend to based myself to only quality works fuelled by passion and at many times, this has led to my downfall in many things I do. I am constantly plagued by procrastination and that is a hard cold reality that I have to face and it really sucks if you know what i mean but please don't sympathize me as I do believe that you and everyone else on the surface of this dying planet is experiencing the same thing. Well it really up to an individual to change his or her destiny but overcoming this problem at hand.
Blah Blah Blah so much philosophy of insanity tonite...what's gotten over me man? Ha boy I am still figuring out how the hell am I still penning all these things here? Now I am finding these profound thoughts confusing...oh well what the hell I am gonna watch Initial D stage 4 that I took from my god-bro a couple of hours ago...goodnite and sweet dreams now...
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Hail to The Undisputed King of Bands (Singapore)
- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -
Haha by the time you read tis i guess you have already heard my background song...yes its hokkien and sung by Sanjeev Veloo from the now de-funct BOREDPHUCKS...yes that's them the 1st local band to be banned by the gov and also the youth council in Singapore...and these songs can be found in their second album " banned in da singapura" if you still can find them...now they are receiving great fan base in australia and doing great there...and also they have since changed their band name...well i sort of idolized them as they are the ONE and ONLY band in Singapore with such great potential and attitude...really great band...by the way the song is called 1 2 1 featured in the local movie "eating air" so go figure...haha and the second song is also by them titled " baby when you are gone"...anyway i kinda just entered this entry to pay tribute to them, yes the boredphucks!!!! Rock on...
Haha by the time you read tis i guess you have already heard my background song...yes its hokkien and sung by Sanjeev Veloo from the now de-funct BOREDPHUCKS...yes that's them the 1st local band to be banned by the gov and also the youth council in Singapore...and these songs can be found in their second album " banned in da singapura" if you still can find them...now they are receiving great fan base in australia and doing great there...and also they have since changed their band name...well i sort of idolized them as they are the ONE and ONLY band in Singapore with such great potential and attitude...really great band...by the way the song is called 1 2 1 featured in the local movie "eating air" so go figure...haha and the second song is also by them titled " baby when you are gone"...anyway i kinda just entered this entry to pay tribute to them, yes the boredphucks!!!! Rock on...
Friday, April 01, 2005
Finished Mock Exam and Awaiting results...
- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -
Dear readers, if you've been cursing and swearing bout how come i haven't been bloggin 4 so long, well err...i guess i am pretty busy preparing for my exams...well sort of...but as for the rest of the time, i kinda ended up playing games and idling in general and also doing my art and stuffs...but i do sincerely apologised but what the hell here i am rite...hehe updated a few songs but not as long as the previous one...
Been so long and there are just so many things to update but first of all i guess it should be something about Momoko-San...well I sort of met here last nov in 2003 thru an exchange program...though i nly met her for 2 days, i must really confess it was really a hell of a good time...brought her to all the places that she wanted in Little Blackie (ala the last ride) and she kinda commented on my driving...scary but safe...that was how she felt and though she had a bf back in japan, she did said to me that she would not mind having a Singaporean as a bf...well its up to you to interpret what she meant...and when she returned to Japan, we did contact each other via emai...and so its like i found out that she would be going to Phillipines as that's where her bf 's origin. So sad...but sometime about a month ago, i actually sent her a letter (in Japanese!!!)...took me like 2 weeks to figure out the correct sentence structure...*sigh* it was really tough or should i admit that my Japanese is still not up to standrard...and not long after she received my letter, she graduated...so sad...and she told me she was actually going to Phillipines...
But!!!!........she sent me an email a couple of weeks ago that...yep you guessed it...she's coming to Singapore...and for 1 YEAR!!!! haha i was really lost for words...and boy am i looking forward to seeing her...well that's like really so sweet...
haha well if you don't really know me, or my past, let's just say that i had a really sad relationship in the past and after that i am really determined on getting a japanese gal or maybe a japanese wife...sorry but its this obsession that kept me alive back then...not that i am bias against local girls but that's just me...nothing can change the past but i know that i can definitely change my future...and i guess Momoko-San is the first japanese girl that a associate with less my japanese teachers, etc...so i guess its from her that i can see my destiny being fulfilled...
Okay so much for Momoko-San, i actually passed 1 of my 4 mock exams though i haven't received the other 3 and that i am kinda like a bit disappointed tha i could actually scored better for that paper...so i guess it wasn't really that bad after all...but i think accounts should be a bit of more practice is needed kinda thing...which is the only paper that i do not really have confidence in...
Now before my arts, this is for the movies...SpongeBob SquarePants the movie wasn't really so bad for those who appreciate lame humour...and Patrick the starfish kinda reminds me of Homer Simpson...haha such uncanny resemblence...and Team American - World Police is actually a ripped off from the 1970s Thunderbirds...haha really sick show and one should really notice how they make fun of Kim Jong Il and fellow american actors...haha kinda worth the 8 bucks if you are into puppet porn and sick jokes...haha go figure...
And oh yeah , so much for my art...i've been trying to construct a 1/6 scale samurai kabuto (helmet) from scratch and spend quite a few $$$ acquiring the materials...and so far after suffering sleepless nights and inhaling a whole whiff of toxin vapours and destroying 2 almost complete helmets, i had 1 big conclusion...the drill bit was actually the wrong size for all those fruitless efforts...damn...but that's good as lessons learnt will not be mistakes in the future...
okay okay so far so good for now...just hang in there now, i promised more will come okay? Tata for now and a little japanese lesson for you...karada ni kyotsukete ne (please take care of your health)
Dear readers, if you've been cursing and swearing bout how come i haven't been bloggin 4 so long, well err...i guess i am pretty busy preparing for my exams...well sort of...but as for the rest of the time, i kinda ended up playing games and idling in general and also doing my art and stuffs...but i do sincerely apologised but what the hell here i am rite...hehe updated a few songs but not as long as the previous one...
Been so long and there are just so many things to update but first of all i guess it should be something about Momoko-San...well I sort of met here last nov in 2003 thru an exchange program...though i nly met her for 2 days, i must really confess it was really a hell of a good time...brought her to all the places that she wanted in Little Blackie (ala the last ride) and she kinda commented on my driving...scary but safe...that was how she felt and though she had a bf back in japan, she did said to me that she would not mind having a Singaporean as a bf...well its up to you to interpret what she meant...and when she returned to Japan, we did contact each other via emai...and so its like i found out that she would be going to Phillipines as that's where her bf 's origin. So sad...but sometime about a month ago, i actually sent her a letter (in Japanese!!!)...took me like 2 weeks to figure out the correct sentence structure...*sigh* it was really tough or should i admit that my Japanese is still not up to standrard...and not long after she received my letter, she graduated...so sad...and she told me she was actually going to Phillipines...
But!!!!........she sent me an email a couple of weeks ago that...yep you guessed it...she's coming to Singapore...and for 1 YEAR!!!! haha i was really lost for words...and boy am i looking forward to seeing her...well that's like really so sweet...
haha well if you don't really know me, or my past, let's just say that i had a really sad relationship in the past and after that i am really determined on getting a japanese gal or maybe a japanese wife...sorry but its this obsession that kept me alive back then...not that i am bias against local girls but that's just me...nothing can change the past but i know that i can definitely change my future...and i guess Momoko-San is the first japanese girl that a associate with less my japanese teachers, etc...so i guess its from her that i can see my destiny being fulfilled...
Okay so much for Momoko-San, i actually passed 1 of my 4 mock exams though i haven't received the other 3 and that i am kinda like a bit disappointed tha i could actually scored better for that paper...so i guess it wasn't really that bad after all...but i think accounts should be a bit of more practice is needed kinda thing...which is the only paper that i do not really have confidence in...
Now before my arts, this is for the movies...SpongeBob SquarePants the movie wasn't really so bad for those who appreciate lame humour...and Patrick the starfish kinda reminds me of Homer Simpson...haha such uncanny resemblence...and Team American - World Police is actually a ripped off from the 1970s Thunderbirds...haha really sick show and one should really notice how they make fun of Kim Jong Il and fellow american actors...haha kinda worth the 8 bucks if you are into puppet porn and sick jokes...haha go figure...
And oh yeah , so much for my art...i've been trying to construct a 1/6 scale samurai kabuto (helmet) from scratch and spend quite a few $$$ acquiring the materials...and so far after suffering sleepless nights and inhaling a whole whiff of toxin vapours and destroying 2 almost complete helmets, i had 1 big conclusion...the drill bit was actually the wrong size for all those fruitless efforts...damn...but that's good as lessons learnt will not be mistakes in the future...
okay okay so far so good for now...just hang in there now, i promised more will come okay? Tata for now and a little japanese lesson for you...karada ni kyotsukete ne (please take care of your health)
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