After the 1st day...

- The Path you Choose Will Be Your Destiny -

haha to tink i noe my work and i actually studied b4 going for the exams and then to realise that i noe only a little...*yikes* i kinda like really freaked out just now, a while ago there while struggling thru the exam...hmm. maybe i should really put in more effort in studyin rather den playin. And in just a few more hours, tomolo will b another tough paper. Back to back with today's paper, how "lucky"!!! Although its just a mock exam and the marks r not taken into consideration 4 my degree, its still a guage of where my standards are. Just as i was born to be a perfectionist by nature, naturally i demand a lot from myself. But too bad there is a particular trait in my character that's bringin me down, laziness. Though i am a perfectionist, i'm rather motivated my my inspirations, which at times r just not there. And besides its just to difficult to work without inspirations at times. But that's just the way it goes...

Okay so back to the mock exams...i just realised that after going thru all the lectures and not missing a single 1 (hmmm...or did i miss 1 or 2?), there is just not enuff to absorb in just a matter of 72 hrs. I guess it just boils down to the most important thing, fluency! Everything around us, including new habits, skills, language, studies, needs time to be adjusted and the more we get associated with it, the more fluent we are. So i guess its just that i have really gotta start practicing more and more. Besides, my ACTUAL exam is like in May, and that's is like only a few mths away, scary eh?! Somehow i used to think that i'm really just haven't got that "study gene" in me and till sometime ago, i'm still living in self denial. But now i came to realise that nobodys' borned to do wat they are capable. Its just how determined you are to get it done. There it goes, i must really put in effort and forced myself to study and to put in the same amount of concentration that i put into gaming. Haha but that's the truth.

Oh well and last nite, the Evil Mosquito came back to pissed me off at around 4.48am in the damn morning. That tiny pesky little twit disappeared the moment i on the lights. And that...robbed me a few precious minutes of my omnipotent sleep, and sleep is something that i put it high in my hierachy if priorities. *sigh* to think that something so small that i could just squashed it between my fingers is capable of wreaking so much havoc to a giant like me. I sincerely salute you, my dear mosquito, but...i'm really sure i will give you a honourable death...(damn you!)

And now that i'm hooked to japanese anime that's showin every Wed ~ Fri on Central every nite 11pm, i really have to cater time appropriately for my studies as i really cant bear to miss those animations. Somehow they seems to possess a certain degree of diazepam to restraint my anxiety and to suppress my stress while studying for my exams. Its like taking a nice hot bath after a tiring day. And to think that this week is like endurance week, Thurs ~ Sat, 2 really tough mock exams and 1 Japanese retest on Sat... haha oh well that's my life and i think i can still cope. Really lookin forward to Sat as I, the lazy bum, your royal highness will be catching Howl's moving castle...Sorry but i just have a soft spot for anything japanese...but as for now, i guess i'll just have to pull thru all these tests. ^_^ and then after that, a good movie awaits me...but next week, another 2 more mock exams...hmmm so much for fluctuations of anxiety...okay gotta go now, will update you soon, tata...